Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
John Stuart Mill · en
It was being played from memory, imperfectly, by someone who had the
whole clear within him and in slowing up for the complicated passages
never stumbled or lost the rhythm or ceased to listen. Someone choosing
just this fragment of all the music in the world to express his state:
joy in being up here in snow and sunlight.
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When the gown was on, the creasing was more evident; all but the
enlivening strange harmony of embroidered blues and greens and mauves
was a criss-cross of sharp lines and shadows.
For the second time the long loud buzzing of the downstairs bell
vibrated its summons through the house.
Standing once more before the little mirror that reflected only her head
and shoulders she recreated the gown in its perfection of cut, the soft
depths of its material that hung and took the light so beautifully.
“Your first Switzerland must be good. I want your first Switzerland to
be good.” And then, in place of illuminating hints, that little diagram
on the table: of life as a zig-zag. Saddening. Perhaps he was right.
Then, since the beginning had been so good, all a sharp zig, what now
waited downstairs, heralded by the creased dress, was a zag, equally
sharp.
The dining-room, low ceiled and oblong, was large and seemed almost
empty. Small tables set away towards a window on the right and only one
of them occupied, left clear the large space of floor between the door
at which she had come in and a table, filling the length of the far side
of the room where beside a gap in the row of diners a servant stood
turned towards her with outstretched indicating hand.
No one but the servant had noticed her entry. Voices were sounding,
smooth easy tones leaving the air composed, as she slipped into her
place in a light that beside the unscreened glare upstairs was mellow,
subdued by shades. The voices were a man’s across the way—light and
kindly, ’Varsity, the smiling tone of one who is amiable even in
disagreement—and that of the woman on her left, a subdued deep bass.
Other voices dropped in, as suave and easy, and clipping and slurring
their words in the same way; but rather less poised.
The tone of these people was balm. Sitting with eyes cast down aware
only of the subdued golden light, she recalled her fleeting glimpse of
them as she had crossed the room, English in daily evening dress, and
was carried back to the little world of Newlands where first she had
daily shared the evening festival of diners dressed and suave about a
table free of dishes, set with flowers and elegancies beneath a clear
and softly shaded light: the world she had sworn never to leave. She
remembered a summer morning, the brightness of the light over her
breakfast tray and its unopened letters and her vow to remain always
surrounded by beauty, always with flowers and fine fabrics, and space
and a fresh clean air always close about her, playing their part that
was so powerful.