Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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Yet Dieppe and Paris and the landscape in between, now that they were
set, by this sudden haven, far away in the past, were already coming
before her eyes transformed, lit by the joy that, hovering all the time
in the background, had seen and felt. France, for whose sake at once she
had longed to cease being a hurrying traveller robbed right and left of
things passing too swiftly, had been seen. Within her now, an
irrevocable extension of being, was France.
France that had spoken from its coast the moment she came up from the
prison of the battened-down saloon; the moment before the shouting
fiends charged up the gangway; spoken from the quay, from the lounging
blue-bloused figures, the buildings, the way the frontage of the town
met the sky and blended with the air, softly, yet clear in its softness,
and with serenity that was vivacious, unlike the stolid English peace.
And later those slender trees along the high bank of a river, the way
they had of sailing-by, mannered, _coquettish_; awakening affection for
the being of France.
And Paris barely glimpsed and shrouded with the glare of night ... the
emanation even of Paris was peace. An emanation as powerful as that of
London, more lively and yet more serene. Serene where gracious buildings
presided over the large flaring thoroughfares, serene even in the
dreadful by-streets.
And that woman at the station. Black-robed figure, coming diagonally
across the clear space yellow in gaslight against the background of
barriered platforms, seeming with her swift assured gait, bust first,
head reared and a little tilted back on the neck, so insolently
feminine, and then, as she swept by, suddenly beautiful; from head to
foot all gracefully moving rhythm. _Style_, of course, redeeming
ugliness and cruelty. She was the secret of France. France concentrated.
Michael, staying in Paris, said that the French are indescribably evil
and their children like monkeys. He had fled eagerly to England. But
Michael’s perceptions are moral. France, within his framework, falls
back into shadow.
The train carrying her through beloved France and away from it to a
bourne that had now ceased to be an imagined place, and become an idea,
useless, to be lost on arrival as her idea of France had been lost, was
so quiet amidst its loud rattling that the whole of it might be asleep.
No sound came from the corridor. No one passed. There was nothing but
the continuous rattling and the clatter of gear. The world deserting her
just when she would have welcomed, for wordless communication of the joy
of achievement, the sight and sound of human kind.
Twelve hours away, and now only a promise of daylight and of food, lay
Berne. Beyond Berne, somewhere in the far future of to-morrow afternoon,
the terminus, the business of finding and bargaining for a sleigh—the
last effort.