Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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“_Don’t_ you remember the four little gentle tuneless phrases, of six
and seven notes alternately, one for each quarter, and at the hour
sounding one after the other with a little pause between each, seeming
to ask you to look at what it saw, at the various life of the town made
suddenly wonderful and strange; and the last phrase, beginning with a
small high note that tapped the sky, and wandering down to the level and
stopping without emphasis, leaving everything at peace and very
beautiful.”
“I think I _can’t_ have heard it,” he said wistfully and sat
contemplative in a little pause during which it occurred to her,
becoming aware of the two of them talking on and on into the morning
that it rested with her to wind up the sitting; that he might perhaps,
if not quite immediately, yet in intention be waiting for her to rise
and spare him the apparent discourtesy of pleading an engagement. Even
failing the engagement they could not sit here forever, and the
convention of his world demanded that she should be the first to go.
She had just time to note coming from far away within herself a defiance
that would sooner inflict upon him the discomfort of breaking the rule
than upon herself the annoyance of moving at its bidding, when he looked
across and said with the bowing attitude he had held last night as he
spoke and waited for her to become aware of him: “May I put you up for
the ski-club?”
It was, of course, his business to cultivate new people, and, if they
seemed suitable, to collect them....
She smiled acknowledgment and insincerely pleaded the shortness of her
stay. All she could do, short of blurting out her poverty which he
seemed not to have seen.
But a fortnight was, he declared, the ideal time: time to learn and to
get on well enough to want to come out again next year; and hurried on
to promise a fellow sufferer, a friend coming up, for only a few days,
from the South, who would be set immediately to work and on whose
account he was committed to-day to trek down to the station.
“We were,” he said, for the first time looking across almost before he
spoke, and with the manner now of making a direct important
communication, “at Cambridge together.”
A valued friend, being introduced, recommended, put before himself.
Warmth crept into his voice, and lively emphasis—compressed into a small
note of distress. That note was his social utmost, for gravity and for
joy; recalling Selina Holland—when she was deeply moved: a wailing tone,
deprecating, but in his tone was more wistfulness, a suggestion too of
anxiety. It had begun when he spoke of Pater’s Renaissance Studies, but
had then merely sounded into the golden light, intensifying it. Now it
seemed to flout the light, flout everything but his desire to express
the absent friend.
“That was some years ago. Since then he has been a very busy man, saying
to this one go and he goeth ...” He smiled across as if asking her to
share the strangeness of his friend’s metamorphosis.