Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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They passed out of hearing and the vast stillness, restored, made her
look forth: at a scene grown familiar, driving her off to fresh seeking
while it went its way towards the day when she would see it for the last
time, giving her even now as she surveyed its irrevocably known beauty,
a foretaste of the nostalgia that must rend her when once more she was
down upon the plains.
But that time was infinitely far away beyond the days during which she
was to live perpetually with this scene that clamoured now to be
communicated in its first freshness.
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The writing at top-speed of half-a-dozen letters left arrival and
beginning in the past, the great doorway of the enchantments she had
tried to describe safely closed behind her, and herself going forward
within them. With letters to post she must now go forth, secretly, as it
were behind her own back, into Oberland; into the scene that had seemed
full experience and was but its overture.
The letters were disappointing. Only in one of them had she escaped
expressing yesterday’s excited achievements and set down instead the
living joy of to-day. And this for the one to whom such joy was
incredible. But all were warm with affection newly felt. The long
distance not only made people very dear—in a surprising way it
re-arranged them. Foremost amongst the men was Densley of the warm heart
and wooden head wildly hailed. His letter, the last and shortest, wrote
itself in one sentence, descriptive, laughing, affectionate. How it
would surprise him....
Life, she told herself as she crossed the hall trying to drown the
kitchen sounds by recalling what had flashed across her mind as she
wrote to Densley, is eternal because joy is. “Future life” is a
contradiction in terms. The deadly trap of the adjective. _Pourquoi
dater?_ Even science insists on indestructibility—yet marks for
destruction the very thing that enables it to recognise
indestructibility. But it had come nearer and clearer than that.
Fawn-coloured woolly puppies, romping in the thick snow at the side of
the steps as though it were grass, huge, as big as lion cubs, with large
snub faces, and dense short bushy coats trying to curl, evenly all over
their tubby tumbling bodies ... St. Bernards, at home in their snow.
They flung themselves at her hands, mumbling her gloves, rolling over
with the smallest shove, weak and big and beautiful and with absurd
miniature barkings.
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