Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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She was alone in the corridor of the sleeping train, in a cold air that
reeked of rusting metal and resounded with the clangour of machinery.
Exploring in both directions she found no sign of an attendant, nothing
but closely shrouded carriages telling of travellers outstretched and
slumbering. Into either of these she felt it impossible to break. There
was nothing for it but to abandon the hope of a night’s rest and drop to
a class whose passengers would be numerous and seated. The train had
gathered a speed that flung her from side to side as she went. In two
journeys she got her belongings across the metal bridge that swayed
above the couplings, and arrived with bruised arms and shoulders in
another length of corridor, a duplicate in noise and cold emptiness of
the one she had left. Everywhere shrouded carriages. But something had
changed, there was something even in the pitiless clangour that seemed
to announce a change of class.
The door she pushed open revealed huddled shapes whose dim faces,
propped this way and that, were all relaxed in slumber. There was no
visible vacant place, but as she hesitated within the emerging reek a
form stirred and sat forward as if to enquire; and when she struggled in
with her bags and her apology the carriage came to life in heavily
draped movement.
She was seated, shivering in a fog of smells, but at rest, escaped from
nightmare voyaging amongst swaying shadows. The familiar world was about
her again and she sat blessing the human kindliness of these sleeping
forms, blessing the man who had first moved, even though his rousing had
proved to be anxiety about the open door which, the moment she was
inside, he had closed with the gusty blowings of one who takes refuge
from a blizzard.
But the sense of home-coming began presently to fade under the pressure
of suffering that promised only to increase. She had long ceased to
wonder what made it possible for these people to add wraps and rugs to
the thick layers of the stifling atmosphere and remain serene. The
effort was no longer possible that had carried her through appearances
into a sense of the reality beneath. She saw them now as repellent
mysteries, pitiless aliens dowered with an unfathomable faculty for
dispensing with air. With each breath the smells that had greeted her,
no longer separately apparent, advanced in waves whose predominant
flavour was the odour of burnt rubber rising from the grating that ran
along the middle of the floor and seemed to sear the soles of her feet.
Getting beneath them her rolled rug she abandoned all but the sense of
survival and sank into herself, into a coma in which everything but the
green-veiled oscillating light was motionless forever. Forever the night
would go on and her head turn now this way now that against the harsh
upholstery.
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