Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
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The train was slowing, stopping. Its rumbling clatter subsided to a
prolonged squeak that ended on a stillness within which sounded one
against the other the rapid ticking of a watch and a steady rhythmic
snore. No one stirred, and for a moment there was nothing but these
sounds to witness that life went on. Then faintly and as if from very
far away she heard the metallic clangours of a large high station and
amidst them a thin clarion voice singing out an indistinguishable name.
Some large sleeping provincial town signalling its importance; a
milestone, marking off hours passed through that need not be braved
again. Yet when the train moved on it seemed impossible even to imagine
the ending of the night. She had no idea of how long she had sat hemmed
and suffering, with nothing in her mind but snatches of song that would
not be dismissed, with aching brow and burning eyeballs and a
ceaselessly on-coming stupor that would not turn to sleep. And at the
next stop with its echoing clangour and faintness of clarion voices she
no longer desired somehow to get across the encumbered carriage and
taste from a corridor window the sweet fresh air of the railway station
so freely breathed by those who were crying in the night.
* * * * *
A numbness had crept into the movement of the train, as though, wearying
it had ceased to clatter and were dropping into a doze. It was moving so
quietly that the ticking of the watch again became audible. The wheels
under the carriage seemed to be muffled and to labour, pushing heavily
forward ... _Snow_. The journey across France ending on the heights
along its eastern edge. Her drugged senses awoke bewailing Paris,
gleaming now out of reach far away in the north, challenging with the
memory of its glimpsed beauty whatever loveliness might be approaching
through the night.
* * * * *
Again outside the stopping train a far-off voice but this time a jocund
sound, ringing echoless in open air. In a moment through a lifted window
it became a rousing summons. Blinds went up, and on the huddled forms
emerging serene and bright-eyed from their hibernation a blueish light
came in. The opened door admitted crisp sounds close at hand and air,
advancing up the carriage.
Upon the platform the air was motionless and yet, walked through, an
intensity of movement—movement upon her face of millions of
infinitesimal needles attacking. Mountain air “like wine,” but this
effervescence was solid, holding one up, feeding every nerve.
A little way down the platform she came upon the luggage, a few trunks
set side by side on a counter, and saw at once that her portmanteau was
not there. Anxiety dogging her steps. But this air, that reached, it
seemed, to her very spirit, would not let her feel anxious.