Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oberland : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 9
John Stuart Mill · en
The fact of the existence of life had either never entered his head or
been left behind in the days before he crystallised. He had now become
one of those who say “our first parents” and see a happy protégé of an
entirely masculine Jehovah duped into age-long misery by the first of
the charmers. Homage and contempt for women came equally forth from him,
the manifest faces of his fundamental ignorance. The feminine world
existed for him as something apart from life as he knew it, and to be
kept apart. Within that world “charm” and “wit” drew him like magnets
and he never guessed their source; knew nothing of the hinterlands in
the minds of women who assumed masks, put him at his ease, appeared not
to criticize. And such women were the sum of his social knowledge. One
day he would be a wise old man “with an eye for a pretty face,” wise
with the wisdom that already was cheating him of life.
There was no hope for him. His youth had left him Vereker, his chum
whose sunny simplicity had always disarmed him, who did not resent his
portentous manner. From women he would have, till old age, flattery for
his strength. From his workers nothing but work, and respect for his
English justice and honesty. It was inconceivable that anyone should
ever pierce his armour; the ultimate male density backed by “means” and
“position.”
His pose had found its bourne in his present position of authority, his
state of being bound to present a god-like serenity; and it had become
so habitual that even when it was put out of action he could not
disencumber himself of it. At this moment, for lack of proper feminine
response from across the table, it was actually embarrassing him. To
proper feminine response, charming chatter or charming adoring silence
he would pay tribute, the half respectful, half condescending interest
of the giant in his hours of ease.
Unable any longer to endure silently, she rode across him with speech;
pictures, for Vereker, of her yesterday’s adventure. Lively and shapely,
inspired by the passage of wrath. Her voice had a bright hard tone,
recognisable as the tone of the lively talker.
She was aware of the friend accepting her as the bright hard mondaine;
at once attentive, his pose relaxed so far as to be represented only by
the eyebrows left a little lifted and still knitting his deliberately
contemplative brow. He was looking, poor dear, at the pictures, enjoying
them, their mechanism, their allusions. And she, for a weary empty
interval, was being a social success. It was a victory for the friend, a
bid for his approval.
Vereker was puzzled, meeting a stranger; a little taken aback. But when
grown weary of the game of brightly arranged exaggerations, she relapsed
into simplicity, he recovered at once and again brought forth his
ski-club. The friend sat by while one after another the persuasive
arguments came forth, smiling with the slightly lifted brow that was now
his apology for smiling at all.