Oliver Constable, miller and baker, Vol. 1 (of 3) — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Oliver Constable, miller and baker, Vol. 1 (of 3)
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Fan was perfectly conscious of a deficiency, while she would rather lay
herself open to a charge of something lacking in her room, than to the
countercharge of false adornment. But she was not sensible that the
chief and unpardonable defect was the absence of all trace of human joy
or sorrow, all touch of human character and token of individual bent,
which might have redeemed the barest room; and that it was the sense of
uneasiness and uncertainty, of doubting and halting on the threshold
of a new order of existence which rendered the atmosphere of this
room repellant as well as cold. Mrs. Hilliard was speaking a certain
amount of nonsense when she added that Fan’s room contained the last
drawing-room suite advertised by Maple or Shoolbred, weeded to death,
since neither Maple—nor Morris himself—could have adequately supplied
the fatal weakness of that room.
But Fan’s own presence did something to enrich it. Fan in her sweeping
mourning was a small, fine-featured, keen-eyed, dark-haired, restless
little woman, whose temperament was the reverse of lymphatic, who had
none of the facile, mindless, heartless sweetness that would have added
the last mawkish offence to the other offences. How a creature like Fan
could exist even for an hour at a time in such a domestic desert, how
she could fail to impress on it some token of her ardent identity, only
proved the strong self-restraint, the determination of purpose of which
the girl was capable.
Fan was idle this afternoon as she was rarely idle, since her
energy, like that of Michael the Wizard’s little fiends, demanded a
constant field for its operation; and as she was inclined to treat
with withering contempt all the poor little girlish fancy-work which
had ever come under her notice, she was notable, for her years, in
household management, and practical in feminine wisdom. Fan could have
kept the house, and regulated and overlooked the _ménage_ very nearly
as well as Sally Pope—in fact she did so when Sally would let her—and
this is no small testimony to Fan’s talents, for old Sally Pope was
an experienced and efficient, if conceited, housekeeper and cook. Not
a girl in Friarton, not one of the well-born vicar’s daughters, who
had each received an excellent education, seen something of the great
world, was clever in her own way, and knew herself compelled to make
the most of her allowance for dress and minor expenses, could spend
that allowance more judiciously in every respect than Fan Constable—who
might have been supposed to revel in rude abundance—could dispose of
her private income. Not a girl, hardly a matron in the parish, was so
available for choir-practising, school teaching, managing the details
of charitable clubs as Fan Constable had already proved herself,—facts
which the vicar’s wife, and the mistress of Copley Grange, when she was
alive, knew right well.