Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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There was a glory hidden in that old darkness, but they did not know it;
though they followed it. Accepting them, plunging into their darkness
she would never be able to keep from finding the bright devil and
wandering wrapt in gloom, but forgetful, perpetually in the bright
spaces within the darkness. And perhaps it was God. Impossible to say.
Religious people shunned the bright places believing them haunted by the
devil. Other religious people believed they were the gift of God and
would presently be everywhere, for everybody, the kingdom of God upon
Earth. But even if factories were abolished and the unpleasant kinds of
work shared out so that they pressed upon nobody, how could the Kingdom
of Heaven come upon earth as long as there were childbirth and cancer?
Light makes _shadows_. The devil is God's shadow? The Persians believed
that in the end the light would absorb the darkness. That was credible.
But it could never happen on earth. That was where the Puritans were
right with their vale of tears, and why they were more deeply attractive
than the other side of the family. Their roots in life were deeper and
harder and the light from the Heavenly City fell upon their foreheads
_because_ they struggled in the gloom. If only they knew what the gloom
was, the marvel of its being there. They were solemn and reproachful
because they could not get at their own gaiety....
The others were _too_ jolly, too much turned out towards life,
deliberately cheerful and roystering, not aware of the wonder and beauty
of gloom, yet more dreadfully haunted and afraid of it, showing its
uncomprehended presence by always deliberately driving it away. They
spread gloom about them, by their perpetual impatient cheerfulness,
afraid to listen and look. Their wild spirits were tragic, bright
tragedy, making their country life sound in the distance like one long
maddening unbroken noise, afraid to stop, rushing on, taking everything
for granted, and troubling about nothing. People who lived in the
country _were_ different. Fresh. All converted by their surroundings
into perpetual noise? The large spaces gave them large rich voices ...
rounded sturdy west country yeomen, blunt featured and jolly, with big
voices. Jesting with women. The women all dark and animated ... arch ...
minxes. Any amount of flirting. All the scandals of the family were on
that side. Girls, careering, with flying hair, round paddocks, on
unbroken bare-backed ponies. Huge families. Hunting. Great Christmas and
Harvest parties. Maypoles in the spring. They always saw the spring,
every year without fail. Perhaps that was their secret? Wherever they
were they saw nothing but dawn and spring, the light coming from the
darkness. They shouted against the darkness because they knew the light
was hidden in it. If you're waking, call me early, call me early ...
So ear-ly in, the mor-ning,
My Belo-ved
_My_ Beloved.