Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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"And you know what you think about my writing. That I, or _anybody_
could _learn_ to write, passably."
"If you _have_ written anything, I've not seen it. You shall learn to
write, passably, in the interests of socialism."
What an awful fate. To sit in a dusty corner, loyally doing odd jobs,
considered by him "quite a useful intelligent creature" among other much
more clever, and to him, more attractive creatures, all working
submissively in the interests of a theory that he understood so well
that he must already be believing in something else. But she was already
a useful fiercely loyal creature, that was how he described her, at
Wimpole Street----But that was for the sake of freedom. Working with him
there would be no freedom at all. Only a series of loyal posings.
Standing upon the footstool to get out, back, away from the wrong
turning into the sense of essential expression. The return into the room
of the sound of the sea, empty and harsh, in a void.
"That's admirable. You could carry off any number of inches, Miriam. You
only want the helmet and the trident. You're Britannia, you know. The
British Constitution. You're infinitely more British than I am."
"Foreigners always tell me I am the only English person who understands
them."
"_Flattery._ You've no _idea_ how British you are. A mass of British
prejudice and intelligent obstinacy. I shall put you in a book."
"Then how can you want me to be a socialist. I am a Tory and an
anarchist by turns."
"You're certainly an anarchist. You're an individualist you know, that's
what's wrong with you."
"And what's wrong with _you_?"
"And now you shall experiment in being a socialist."
"Tories are the best socialists."
"You shall be a Tory socialist. My dear Miriam, there will be socialists
in the House of _Lords_."
The same group of days had contained the relief of the beginning of
generalisations; the end, on her part, of stories about people, told
with an eye upon his own way of observing and stating. These stories
had, during the earlier time, kept him so amused and, with his profane
comments and paraphrases, so perpetually entertaining, that a large part
of her private councils during the visits were spent in reviewing the
long procession of Tansley Street boarders, the patients at Wimpole
Street, and people ranged far away in her earlier lives, as material for
anecdote. But throughout the delight of his interest and his surprising
reiterated envy of the variety of her contacts, there had been a
haunting sense of misrepresentation, and even of treachery to him, in
contributing to his puzzling almost unvarying vision of people as
pitifully absurd, from the small store of experiences she had dropped
and forgotten, until he drew them forth and called them wealth.