Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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His refusal to believe in a Russian's individuality because no one had
heard of him had set a term to these communications, leaving an abrupt
pain. It was so strange that he should fail to recognise the distinction
of the Russian _being_, the quality of the Russian attitude towards
life. He had followed with interest, gentle and patient at first before
her overwhelming conviction, allowing her to add stroke after stroke to
her picture, seeming for a moment to see what she saw and then----What
has he _done_? Either it was that his pre-arranged picture of European
life had no place for these so different, inactive Russians, or her
attempts to represent people in themselves, without borrowed methods of
portrayal, were useless because they fell between the caricature which
was so uncongenial to her and the methods of description current in
everyday life, which equally refused to serve by reason of their tacit
reference to ideas she could not accept.
But the beginnings of abstract discussion had brought a most joyful
relief, and a confirming intensification of the beauty of the interiors
and of the surrounding landscape, in which their talks were set.
Discussing people, save when he elaborated legend and profanity until
privately she called upon the hosts of heaven to share this brightest
terrestrial mirth, cast a spell of sadness all about her. With every
finished vignette there came a sense of ending. Sacrificed to its sharp
expressiveness were the real moments of these people's lives; and the
moments of the present, counting themselves off, ignored and
irrecoverable, offering, as their extension, time that was unendurably
narrow and confined, a narrow featureless darkness, its walls grinning
with the transfixed features of consciousness that had always been, and
must, if the pictures were accepted as true, forever be, a motionless
absurdity.
Launched into wide opposition, no longer trying to see with his eyes,
while still hoarding, as a contrasting amplification of her own visions,
much that he had given her, she found people still there; rallying round
her in might, ranging forward through time, each one standing clear of
everything that offered material for ironic commentary, in a radiant
individuality.
Wide generalisation was, she had immediately vowed, the way to
illuminating contemplation of humanity. Its exercise made the present
moment a life in itself, going on forever; the thought of the speakers
and the surroundings blended in an unforgettable whole; her past life
gleaming about her in a chain of moments; leaping glad acceptances or
ardent refusals, of large general views.