Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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It was his bright _beginning_ voice. They were to spend the _evening_
... shut in a small cold bedroom ... resourceless, shut in with this
slain romance ... and the way already closed for communication between
herself and the Russians before she had known that they could exchange
words that would at least cast their own brief spell. Between herself
and Madame Lintoff nothing could pass that would throw even the thinnest
veil over their first revealing encounter. To the unknown man anything
she might say would be an announcement of her knowledge of his reduced
state....
The coming upstairs had stayed the tide of reminiscences. There was
nothing ahead but obstructive conversation, perhaps in French; but
steered all the time by Michael's immovable European generalisations;
his clear, swiftly manoeuvring, encyclopædic Jewish mind....
With her eyes on the fatiguing vista she agreed that of course Monsieur
and Madame Lintoff would know French; letting her English voice sound at
last. The instant before she spoke she heard her words sound in the dim
street-lit room, an open acknowledgment of the death of her
anticipations. And when the lame words came forth, with the tone of the
helplessly insulting, polite, superfluous English smile, she knew that
it was patent to everyone that the evening was dimmed, now, for them
all. It was not her fault that she had been brought in amongst these
clever foreigners. Let them think what they liked, and go. If even
anarchists had their world linked to them by strands of clever easy
speech, had she not also her world, away from speech and behaviour?
Lintoff was lighting a candle on the chest of drawers. The soft
reflected glare coming in at the small square windows, was quenched by
its gleam. He was standing quite near, in profile, his white face and
bright beard lit red from below. The bent head full of expression, yet
innocent, was curious, neither English nor foreign. He was a Doctor of
Philosophy. But not in the way any other European man would have been.
His figure had no bearing of any kind. Yet he did not look foolish. A
secret. There was some secret power in him ... Russia. She was seeing
Russia; far-away Michael blessedly there in the room; keeping her there.
He had sat down in his way, in a small bedroom chair, his head thrust
forward on his chest, his hands in his pockets, his legs stretched out
across the thread-bare carpet, his coffee on the floor at his side. He
was at home in Russia after his English years. Madame Lintoff in the
small corner beside the bed was ferreting leisurely in a cupboard with
her back to the room. Lintoff was holding a match to the waxy wick of
the second candle. No one was speaking. But the cold dingy room, with
its mean black draperies and bare furniture, was glowing with life.