Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Revolving lights : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 7
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In the colourless moaning voice with which she agreed that there was
much for her to see in London and that she had many things she wished
particularly not to miss, in the way she put her foreigner's questions,
there was an over-whelming indifference. It went right through. She sat
there, behind her softly moulded beauty, dreadfully full of clear hard
energy; yet immobile in perfect indifference. Not expecting speech; yet
filching away the power to be silent. No breath from Lintoff's wide
vistas had ever reached her. She had driven along, talking, teaching,
agitating; had gone through her romance without once moving away from
the dark centre of indifference where she lay coiled and beautiful....
_Her_ sympathy with the proletarians was a fastidious horror of all they
suffered. Her cold clear mind summoned it easily, her logical brain
could find sharp terse phrases to describe it. She cared no more for
them than for the bourgeois people from whom she had fled with equal
horror, and terse phrases, into more desperate activities than he. He
loved and _wanted_ the people. He felt separation from them more as his
loss than as theirs. He wanted the whole vast multitude of humanity. The
men came strolling. Lintoff asked a question. They all flung sentences
in turn, abruptly, in Russian, from unmoved faces. They were making
arrangements for tomorrow.
Lintoff stood flaring in the lamplit porch, speeding them on their way
with abrupt caressing words.
"Well?" said Michael before they were out of hearing--"Did you like
them?"
"Yes or no as the case may be." Michael's recovered London manner was a
support against the prospect of sustaining a second meeting tomorrow,
with everything already passed that could ever pass between herself and
them.
"You have made an _immense_ impression on Bruno Feodorovitch."
"How do you know?"
"He finds you the type of the Englishwoman. Harmonious. He said that
with such a woman a man could all his life be perfectly happy. Ah,
Miriam, let us at once be married." His voice creaked pathetically;
waiting for the lash. The urgent certainty behind it was not his own
certainty. Nothing but a too dim, too intermittent sense of something he
gathered in England. She stood still to laugh aloud. His persistent
childish naughtiness assured her of the future and left her free to
speak.