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“God pity her, God comfort her!” she sobbed. “Ah, no wonder she
execrates me! Through me she lost her noble son. Why did I ever come
under her roof, and bring with me the doom of that tragedy? What have I
accomplished? Nothing--less than nothing. I have wronged a true heart
by a monstrous doubt, and through me he came to his death. And I am
just as far as ever from keeping my vow to clear my mother from that
dark cloud of shame! Oh, my dearest one, how could I ever meet you
again, even in heaven, if I had broken faith with you! No, no, I cannot
go to you, my vow binds me here!”
CHAPTER XII.
THE BEAUTIFUL YOUNG WIDOW.
As Italy crouched there, weeping in wild abandon, she heard a door
open, lower down the hall, then footsteps coming along, accompanied by
the crying of an infant.
The footsteps stopped at her door, there was a light rap, then a
woman’s voice said deprecatingly:
“I beg pardon, Miss Vale, but I heard you up. May I speak to you?”
“One moment,” answered Italy. She hurriedly lighted her gas, threw on
her dressing-gown, and opened the door to Mrs. Mays, her landlady, who
entered with the crying infant in her arms.
“My dear, I beg a hundred pardons, but my daughter is taken suddenly
very ill with convulsions, and there is not another lady in the house
that I can appeal to for help. The nurse left to-day, and the baby
cannot stay in bed with its sick mother. It is crying from loneliness
and cold. Will you, my dear, let it lie in bed with you to-night while
I attend to my daughter?”
“Certainly,” Italy answered, taking the screaming bundle of flannel and
lace rather gingerly into her arms, “but, dear me, Mrs. Mays, how can I
stop its crying?”
“It will stop itself as soon as you get into bed, and let it snuggle up
close on your arm and get warm. You see, it has been used to sleeping
with its mother and in the dark, but her restless tossings and the
light in her room keep it awake and sick. Do the best you can with it,
my dear, and God bless you!” cried Mrs. Mays, hurrying from the room,
while Italy locked the door, lowered the light, and crept into bed with
her wee charge that, sure enough, as soon as it became conscious of the
warmth and the darkness, cuddled close within her warm arm and fell
asleep.
“Poor little girlie,” murmured Italy, with that rush of tenderness
every womanly heart feels for helpless infancy.
But the chances are that had Italy guessed whose child lay on her arm
she would have recoiled from it with something near akin to loathing.
Italy had been an inmate of this pleasant boarding-house almost two
months, but she had never seen Mrs. Mays’ widowed daughter nor heard
her name, although she knew that she was very young, and had been
suddenly widowed in barely a year after marriage.