“When he married the McTodd girl,” Gorham corrected me softly. Then he
went on: “His history was that of hundreds of other seafaring men from
that time on; dogged, hard work, scanty savings and intervals when he
had to tramp the streets in search of a berth. But he managed pretty
well. He saved money. He treated Sheila in an exemplary manner. But he
avoided all contact with the old crowd; he was almost ferocious, at
times, when one caught him on the street and spoke of former times. Yet
all the while he was working steadily upward. Then he happened on that
salvage job of the _Mary Foster_, and dumped fifteen thousand dollars
into Sheila’s bank account. I met him in Liverpool six months later. He
was embarrassed, as if he had no business away from the Pacific. It
appeared he had a very good command. But he was going back to San
Francisco, just the same----”
“Gave up his second chance in a big line,” I interrupted.
Gorham nodded.
“He couldn’t stand it, you see. Kitty was in California. He suffered the
agonies of the damned that night in a little hotel near the landing
stage--for Harry Owen wanted to talk, to sit there in that infinitely
dingy room in that ill-smelling hostel in Liverpool and tell me the
truth, the enormous and insurmountable fact of his existence, that he
loved Kitty Melrose; and he dared not. But it showed on his face, white
and haggard under the tan; in his hard-bitten lips and tense hands. He
tossed up his command and took a miserable old tramp back to the Golden
Gate. From that time on, he stayed in the coastwise trade.
“Imagine to yourself,” Gorham went on, “the manner of life the man led;
instead of getting drunk, he got himself married, and so forever
debarred from seeing the one woman the world held for him. He was
constantly coming into San Francisco and snatching at the papers to see
whether Kitty was engaged, or married; he was constantly leaving the
city, knowing that he could never be anything in her splendid life.”
“Ah,” I said, “he talked at last, did he?”
Gorham ignored my thrust.
“There was always Sheila, too. And when I speak of her, of Harry Owen’s
wife, I am on firmer ground. She made a confidant of me; she used to
visit my office on some excuse or other and conclude by saying abruptly
and bitterly, ‘I suppose you won’t tell----’
“That was her complaint about life; none of us who had been part of
Harry’s old, youthful days could carry over, so to speak. She was forced
to recognize that, when he married her, he had closed a door which she
could not pry open.”
Gorham tapped the hot ashes out of his pipe thoughtfully.