The Green Millennium — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Green Millennium
John Stuart Mill · en
Dr. Romadka leaned toward him, resting an elbow on the curving desk.
"If you had any idea of half the things people tell me across this
desk, normal neurotic people I mean, you wouldn't be so much impressed
by your own experience. There's a woman, for instance, who keeps seeing
shimmery moon-spiders in dark corners. There's a man who is always
getting glimpses of a girl dressed in skin-tight mink that covers her
face, too. And there's another fellow who keeps waking up in the middle
of the night with the absolute conviction that he's in bed with--no, I
shouldn't tell you that one."
"But I actually seemed to see it," Phil persisted stubbornly. "It
wasn't just a glimpse or shadows."
Dr. Romadka smiled. "How many people have seen flying saucers, Phil?
Including astronomers and atomic scientists. How many people have
seen Russian soldiers or Russian homing missiles nosing around their
bedroom windows? And how many people thought they saw Roosevelt--and
thought they walked and talked with him--the day of the Great Panic in
Atom War Two? Besides all that, Phil, there were shadows: you said the
polarizing window wasn't at maximum transparency. Also, you've been
overdosing yourself with sleeping pills--you admit it--and they can do
funny things. As for the hoofs, well, have you ever thought how high
heels are really cruel little hoofs? Anyone who's seen ladies fight
will confirm this. And the girl's hair-do, her suit splotched like a
piebald horse, the remembered sound of the tap-dancing--don't you see
how your unconscious could weave those things and a thousand more into
an image that in your strained condition you were all too ready to
accept?"
"I guess I do," Phil said finally, feeling considerable relief. Not for
long, though.
"But there's one other thing," he said, sitting up suddenly. "The thing
I thought I saw this afternoon. A lot more real than the satyrette
even. I thought I was with it for an hour. Even touched it and fed it."
"What other thing?" the analyst asked gently, with just the hint of a
tolerant laugh.
"The green cat," Phil said.
When the analyst didn't answer, Phil looked around. Dr. Anton Romadka
was simply staring at him. The four scratches and the dried trickles of
blood on his left cheek stood out much more sharply, as if he had grown
pale.
"I said the green cat," Phil said.
"The green cat?" The analyst's voice was a distant echo of itself.
"Yes."
"Umm," the analyst observed hollowly and sank farther down into his
chair, almost as if he were reaching for something with his toe.
Something beeped musically. The analyst snatched up the phone. His face
instantly assumed a fierce expression. He said, with pregnant pauses
during which he scowled, "Yes ... No, I can't. I can't possibly, I tell
you.... You couldn't do that; you'd be arrested.... Very well then, but
only for five minutes. Five minutes, do you hear? I'll be waiting."