The Green Millennium — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Green Millennium
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He replaced the phone and looked around at Phil with a despair that
his baldness and big eyes turned comical. "This is most embarrassing,"
he said. "A former patient insists on seeing me at once, threatens to
cause a disturbance downstairs if I won't. She would, too. We had some
fine fracases before she broke off the analysis. I have no other course
but to see her. I know how to pacify her temporarily, enough to get her
home."
"I'd better go," Phil said, rising.
"Wouldn't hear of it," Dr. Romadka protested. "I want to go much deeper
into your case this evening. That last thing you mentioned--it opened
vistas! No, you just wait for five minutes in the next room, ten at the
most, and I'll have her out of here."
"I do think I'd better go, though," Phil said, "if you don't mind."
"Quite impossible," Dr. Romadka pronounced, taking a firm hold of his
arm. "She's passionately jealous of all my other patients and would be
sure to attack you the instant you stepped out of the elevator. Did
I tell you she carries a gold squirt gun filled with sulphuric acid?
That's one of her cuter tricks. The only other way out is the service
chute, and that's hardly for human use. No," he said, guiding Phil
through a door beyond the arch but not entering himself, "you just stay
in here for five minutes or so. There's plenty to read, to glance
over and listen to--not that you'll have much time. Trust me, Phil.
Everything's under control."
The door shut. One fleeting glance around showed shelves of books,
racks of vocal booktapes, a divan, a central table and a large mirror
set in the ceiling. Then Phil remembered he had left his cigarettes on
the desk. He punched the door button. Nothing happened. He punched it
again.
There still hadn't been time for Dr. Romadka to have taken five steps
away from the other side. He started to hammer on the wall.
"Dr. Romadka," he called. "Dr. Romadka!"
The lights went out.
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Phil stopped pounding on the wall and the black silence closed around
him drowningly, stranglingly, like a preview of the mental hospital
cell and electrosleep to which, he was suddenly sure, Dr. Romadka
intended to consign him on a psychiatrist's writ. In the thick darkness
he heard his heart pounding. His rapid breathing was for a moment that
of an animal.
He wondered helplessly why the analyst, after taking his satyrette
hallucination so lightly, should have instantly typed him as a
dangerous lunatic at his mention of a green cat. Psychologists, he
supposed, knew things about the mind's secret language that were never
told to ordinary people: seemingly innocent symbols that stamped
men as cowards, rapists, murderers, traitors, crypto-communists,
non-conformists. A fragment of conversation he'd heard somewhere came
back to him: "Of course as soon as he saw _that_ in the inkblot, they
hustled him off."