The happiest time of their lives — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The happiest time of their lives
John Stuart Mill · en
About three she had gone out with her mother in the motor, with the
understanding that she was to be left at home at four; her mother was
going on to tea with an elderly relation. Fifth Avenue had seemed
unusually crowded even for Fifth Avenue, and the girl had fretted
and wondered at the perversity of the police, who held them up just
at the moment most promising for slipping through; and why Andrews,
the chauffeur, could not see that he would do better by going to
Madison Avenue. She did not speak these thoughts aloud, for she had
not told her mother, not from any natural love of concealment, but
because any announcement of her plans for the afternoon would have
made them seem less certain of fulfilment. Perhaps, too, she had felt
an unacknowledged fear of certain of her mother’s phrases that could
delicately puncture delight.
She had been dropped at the house by ten minutes after four, and
exactly at a quarter before five she had been in the drawing-room, in
her favorite dress, with her best slippers, her hands cold, but her
heart warm with the knowledge that he would soon be there.
Only after forty-five minutes of waiting did that faith begin to grow
dim. She was too inexperienced in such matters to know that this was
the inevitable consequence of being ready too early. She had had time
to run through the whole cycle of certainty, eagerness, doubt, and she
was now rapidly approaching despair. He was not coming. Perhaps he
had never meant to come. Possibly he had merely yielded to a polite
impulse; possibly her manner had betrayed her wishes so plainly that a
clever, older person, two or three years out of college, had only too
clearly read her in the moment when she had detained his hand at the
door of the ball-room.
There was a ring at the bell. Her heart stood perfectly still, and then
began beating with a terrible force, as if it gathered itself into
a hard, weighty lump again and again. Several minutes went by, too
long for a man to give to taking off his coat. At last she got up and
cautiously opened the door; a servant was carrying a striped cardboard
box to her mother’s room. Miss Severance went back and sat down. She
took a long breath; her heart returned to its normal movement.
Yet, for some unexplained reason, the fact that the door-bell had rung
once made it more possible that it would ring again, and she began to
feel a slight return of confidence.
A servant opened the door, and in the instant before she turned her
head she had time to debate the possibility of a visitor having come in
without ringing while the messenger with the striped box was going out.
But, no; Pringle was alone.
Pringle had been with the family since her mother was a girl, but, like
many red-haired men, he retained an appearance of youth. He wanted to
know if he should take away the tea.