The happiest time of their lives — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The happiest time of their lives
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Mathilde was immensely grateful to her mother for taking so much
trouble to be charming; only now she rather spoiled it by interrupting
Wayne in the midst of a sentence, as if she had never been as much
interested as she had seemed. Pringle had appeared in answer to her
ring, and she asked him sharply:
“Is Mr. Farron in?”
“Mr. Farron’s in his room, Madam.”
At this she appeared to give her attention wholly back to Wayne, but
Mathilde knew that she was really busy composing an escape. She seemed
to settle back, to encourage her visitor to talk indefinitely; but when
the moment came for her to answer, she rose to her feet in the midst of
her sentence, and, still talking, wandered to the door and disappeared.
As the door shut firmly behind her Wayne said, as if there had been no
interruption:
“It was love you were speaking of, you know.”
“But don’t you think my mother is marvelous?” she asked, not content to
take up even the absorbing topic until this other matter had received
due attention.
“I should say so! But one isn’t, of course, overwhelmed to find that
your mother is beautiful.”
“And she’s so good!” Mathilde went on. “She’s always thinking of things
to do for me and my grandfather and Mr. Farron and all these old, old
relations. She went away just now only because she knows that as soon
as Mr. Farron comes in he asks for her. She’s perfect to every one.”
He came and sat down beside her again.
“It’s going to be much easier for her daughter,” he said: “you have to
be perfect only to one person. Now, what was it you were going to say
about love?”
Again they looked at each other; again Miss Severance had the sensation
of drowning, of being submerged in some strange elixir.
She was rescued by Pringle’s opening the door and announcing:
“Mr. Lanley.”
Wayne stood up.
“I suppose I must go,” he said.
“No, no,” she returned a little wildly, and added, as if this were the
reason why she opposed his departure. “This is my grandfather. You must
see him.”
Wayne sat down again, in the chair on the other side of the tea-table.
CHAPTER II
Mathilde had been wrong in telling Wayne that her mother had gone
upstairs in obedience to an impulse of kindness. She had gone to
quiet a small, gnawing anxiety that had been with her all the day,
a haunting, elusive, persistent impression that something was wrong
between her and her husband.
All the day, as she had gone about from one thing to another, her mind
had been diligently seeking in some event of the outside world an
explanation of a slight obscuration of his spirit; but her heart, more
egotistical, had stoutly insisted that the cause must lie in her. Did
he love her less? Was she losing her charm for him? Were five years the
limit of a human relation like theirs? Was she to watch the dying down
of his flame, and try to shelter and fan it back to life as she had
seen so many other women do?