The happiest time of their lives — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The happiest time of their lives
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Or was the trouble only that she had done something to wound his aloof
and sensitive spirit, seldom aloof to her? Their intimate life had
never been a calm one. Farron’s interests were concentrated, and his
temperament was jealous. A woman couldn’t, as Adelaide sometimes had
occasion to say to herself, keep men from making love to her; she did
not always want to. Farron could be relentless, and she was not without
a certain contemptuous obstinacy. Yet such conflicts as these she had
learned not to dread, but sometimes deliberately to precipitate, for
they ended always in a deeper sense of unity, and, on her part, in a
fresh sense of his supremacy.
If he had been like most of the men she knew, she would have assumed
that something had gone wrong in business. With her first husband she
had always been able to read in his face as he entered the house the
full history of his business day. Sometimes she had felt that there was
something insulting in the promptness of her inquiry, “Has anything
gone wrong, Joe?” But Severance had never appeared to feel the insult;
only as time went on, had grown more and more ready, as her interest
became more and more lackadaisical, to pour out the troubles and,
much more rarely, the joys of his day. One of the things she secretly
admired most about Farron was his independence of her in such matters.
No half-contemptuous question would elicit confidence from him, so that
she had come to think it a great honor if by any chance he did drop
her a hint as to the mood that his day’s work had occasioned. But for
the most part he was unaffected by such matters. Newspaper attacks and
business successes did not seem to reach the area where he suffered or
rejoiced. They were to be dealt with or ignored, but they could neither
shadow or elate him.
So that not only egotism, but experience, bade her look to her own
conduct for some explanation of the chilly little mist that had been
between them for twenty-four hours.
As soon as the drawing-room door closed behind her she ran up-stairs
like a girl. There was no light in his study, and she went on into
his bedroom. He was lying on the sofa; he had taken off his coat, and
his arms were clasped under his head; he was smoking a long cigar. To
find him idle was unusual. His was not a contemplative nature; a trade
journal or a detective novel were the customary solace of odd moments
like this.
He did not move as she entered, but he turned his eyes slowly and
seriously upon her. His eyes were black. He was a very dark man, with
a smooth, brown skin and thick, fine hair, which clung closely to his
broad, rather massive head. He was clean shaven, so that, as Adelaide
loved to remember a friend of his had once suggested, his business
competitors might take note of the stern lines of his mouth and chin.
She came in quickly, and shut the door behind her, and then dropping on
her knees beside him, she laid her head against his heart. He put out
his hand, touched her face, and said: