The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
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"He loved me, too; he wouldn't leave me; but he thought I wasn't old
enough--not old enough, ha, ha!... David, does God know about us?"
"Not enough to trouble Him much, I expect," said the young man, with
a short laugh. "If anything knows about us, it's the old wheel there,
waiting like a black devil to carry us off. Come, we must creep back to
the house."
They rose, Swanhilda stood before him, her sweet sad face glimmering
shadowy pale through the darkness. "Say, 'I love you, Swanhilda, and I
will never leave you!'" she whispered.
He hesitated, laughed, stroked her hair, and stooping, gazed deep into
her eyes, as on the day when they first met. Did his heart falter for
a moment, realising how utterly she was his own? "You trusted me just
now," said he; "are you getting suspicious again?"
"No; but I am afraid--always afraid now. When you are not with me, I am
afraid of everyone I meet; I think they will see our secret in my eyes.
When I lie alone at night I am afraid to pray to God, as I used to do.
What is it? Why do I feel so? It must be that we have done some wrong.
My poor love! have I made you do any wrong? I would rather be dead."
"Little darling--no! You couldn't do wrong if you tried. There is no
wrong--I swear there isn't. Listen, now in your ear: I love you,
Swanhilda, and I will never leave you! Satisfied now?"
Low as the words were whispered, they were heard beyond the stars, and
stamped themselves upon the eternal records. But their only palpable
witness was the mill wheel. A log of wood, carried over the fall, came
forcibly in contact with the low-impending rim. It swung the heavy
structure partly round upon its axle. And straightway, upon the hollow
night, echoed a faint yet appalling sound as of jeering laughter. Slowly
it died away, and silence closed in once more, like darkness after a
midnight lightning flash. But it vibrated still in the startled hearts
of the man and the woman, who crept so stealthily back to the house, and
vanished in the blackness of the doorway, and it revisited their unquiet
dreams.
IX.
Summer and winter came and went, and were followed by a gloomy and
dismal spring. The late-lying snow was dissolved by heavy rains so that
the mill stream was swollen beyond precedent, and rolled thundering
through the gorge with the force of a full-grown cataract. But the mill
was idle, and the wheel stood still. None came for flour now, nor to
bring grist; for many a week all work had been foregone.