The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
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Jael drew back with a sickening apprehension at her heart. Gloam was too
plainly in a state of delirious frenzy, if he were not actually mad. She
longed for David's appearance, and yet dreaded it; she knew not whether
the meeting between the two men would issue well or ill. And then her
mind reverted to Swanhilda, and she asked herself what the effect of her
lover's presence would be upon her. Ever since the first week following
upon his departure the young mother had maintained a singularly passive
demeanour, only occasionally disturbed by seasons of vague and tremulous
anxiety. The housekeeper had looked in upon her several times that
afternoon. She lay quietly in one position, her eyes open and fixed,
save when the baby claimed her attention. She did not speak, and seemed
scarcely aware of outward things. Even the uproar of the mill, when that
began, commanded her notice but for a short time, and appeared rather to
gratify than to distress her. She perhaps associated it with the thought
of David, and fancied it in some way indicative of that home-return
which she had all along never allowed herself to despair of. But she
was as one partly entranced, whose ears and eyes, as some believe, are
opened to things beyond the ordinary ken of human senses.
The evening was cloudy, and night came on apace. Gloam had re-entered
the house shortly after dark, and Jael presently went to his room to ask
him where he would take his evening meal. But he met her in the upper
passage-way. He seemed to carry something in his hand. She could not
make out what it was, and he immediately hid it beneath his coat. To her
inquiries he replied that he was going forth to resume his old practice
of walking, and that he would sup with David after his return. Jael, in
her uneasiness, would gladly have persuaded him to remain at home; but
he was obstinate against all entreaties, and finally pushed roughly by
her and was gone.