The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Laughing Mill, and Other Stories
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Meanwhile the mill was still in motion. The housekeeper had an impulse,
soon after Gloam's departure, to go out and uncouple the machinery; but
she feared lest he might resent her interference, and forebore. The
noise, and the suspense she was in, combined to keep her in a state of
feverish restlessness. Her thoughts busied themselves, against her will,
with all manner of gloomy and painful memories and speculations. The
vision of her youth rose up before her, and filled her with vain,
remorseful terrors. She strove to cheer herself with picturing her son's
arrival; but even that had now become a source of apprehension rather
than of comfort. All the time she was oppressed by an indefinable
sensation that someone was prowling about outside the house; and once,
after the wheel had delivered itself of an outpouring of inhuman mirth,
Jael fancied the strain was taken up in a no less wild, though not so
penetrating key. Was it possible that Gloam was lurking in the gorge?
And, if so, what could he be doing there? Cautiously she peered out of
the window; but the moon was as yet obscured by clouds, and nothing was
certainly distinguishable. She returned to the fireside; yet paused
and listened again, because--or else her excited imagination deceived
her--another and a different sound had reached her from without: a
sharp, grating sound, like that made by a rusty saw eating its way
through close-grained timber. Ere she could be certain about the matter,
however, the noise stopped, and returned no more.
An hour or so later, it wanting then only a few minutes of midnight,
Swanhilda suddenly awoke from her half-trance, and sat upright in
her bed. The house resounded dully to the muffled throbbing of the
machinery, but otherwise there was no stir. The little baby had fallen
sound asleep, and lay at its mother's side, with its tiny hands folded
beneath its chin, and grasping the pearl-shell necklace, which
was its favourite plaything. After sitting tense and still for a
moment, Swanhilda got out of bed, huddled on some clothes, kissed the
unconscious baby twice or thrice, and then silently left the room. In
another minute she had stolen down the stairs, and was standing between
the house and the stream in the open air. She looked first one way and
then another, and finally, without any hesitation in her manner, but
with an assured and joyful bearing, bent her steps towards the top of
the gorge. A narrow footpath led up thither, and at the highest point
turned to the right, and was carried across the torrent by a narrow
bridge formed of a single plank. When Swanhilda came to the turn, she
did not go over the bridge, but sat down upon a stone amidst the
shrubbery, and waited.