The mill house mystery — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The mill house mystery
John Stuart Mill · en
“You want to know, I suppose, whether I still feel the infatuation I
felt then about him?” she said. “Of course I don’t. It was a young
girl’s childish fancy. But I do think he is a most sympathetic, kindly
natured man, and I should be very glad, considering what my
obligations are to him, if I could be of any use in taking care of his
child.”
She was wondering, as she spoke, what Lady Sarah would say when she
found her installed at the Mill-house. Until that moment, strange to
tell, she had felt no curiosity on this point; it was only now, when
she saw the view the housekeeper took of her coming, that this
question suggested itself to her. However, there were some days to
pass before Lady Sarah would return from abroad, and in the meantime
Rhoda might pass her time very happily with the child, she thought.
And so it fell out. Within a few minutes her _tête-à-tête_ with the
housekeeper was interrupted by a message to the effect that Master
Caryl wanted to see her, wanted to know whether she would have tea
with him, and Rhoda, hastily divesting herself of her hat, went
downstairs to the boy’s room, where she found him, flushed and eager,
awaiting her coming and welcoming her with a cry of delight.
The next few days were among the happiest she had ever passed. Caryl
was a charming companion, affectionate, docile on the whole, though
somewhat spoilt. He had taken a great fancy to Rhoda, and would not
leave her much time to herself, while Sir Robert, delighted at his
son’s finding an interest in life, overwhelmed her with signs of his
appreciation.
Rhoda wondered sometimes whether he did not begin to remember her; for
she would find him regarding her as it were by stealth, with a frown
of pain upon his face, and although he asked no questions, she felt
sure that he must already be wondering whether he had not met her
before.
To Rhoda the sadness in his quiet face was infinitely touching, and
little by little she found ways of making herself useful to him, by
copying the notes he had made concerning his curios, as well as by
letting him talk to her concerning them.
“It’s very good of you to let yourself be bored, Miss Pembury,” he
would say to her with a shy laugh when he had been expatiating upon
the beauties of his enamels or of his old Sèvres china. “When Lady
Sarah comes back, she will say that you have spoilt me. I’m not used
to having my dull dissertations listened to with so much appearance of
interest. And I’m quite sure,” he added archly, “that it can’t be more
than an appearance.”
“Indeed I wouldn’t pretend to be interested if I were not, Sir
Robert,” Rhoda assured him humbly and earnestly.
And she told the truth. She would not, indeed, have found the pictures
and curios so intensely interesting as she did, if they had not
belonged to the man who had once saved her life. But for his sake she
liked them, and her sympathy delighted the grave and rather lonely
gentleman.