And yet who could say that a coward and a villain might not be speaking
the truth even in an accusation of this nature? The very fact that it
met and gave form and substance to my own dim and unrecognized fears,
proved that something as yet unknown and unsounded connected the
mysterious death of Mr. Barrows with the family towards which this
accusation evidently pointed. While my own heart beat with dread, how
could I ignore the possibility of these words being the work of an
accomplice disgusted with his crime, or of a tool anxious to save
himself, and at the same time to avenge some fancied slight? I could
not. If peace and hope were lost in the effort, I must learn the truth
and satisfy myself, once and for all, as to whose hatred and fear the
Pollards were indebted for insinuations at once so tremendous and so
veiled.
That I was the only person who had probably seen and read these fatal
words, lent purpose to my resolution. If, as I madly hoped, they were
but the expression of suspicion, rather than of knowledge, what a
satisfaction it would be for me to discover the fact, and possibly
unmask the cowardly author, before the public mind had been infected by
his doubts.
But how could I, a woman and a stranger, with no other talisman than my
will and patience, accomplish a purpose which would be, perhaps, no
easy one for a trained detective to carry out to a successful issue?
The characters in which the fatal insinuations had been conveyed
offered no clue. They were printed, and in so rough and commonplace a
manner that the keenest mind would have found itself baffled if it had
attempted to trace its way to the writer through the mere medium of the
lines he had transcribed. I must, therefore, choose some other means of
attaining my end; but what one?
I had never, in spite of the many trials and embarrassments of my life,
been what is called an intriguing woman. Nor had I ever amused myself
with forming plots or devising plans for extricating imaginary
characters out of fancied difficulties by the mere exercise of their
wits. _Finesse_ was almost an unknown word to me, and yet, as I sat
there with this fatal bit of paper in my hand, I felt that a power
hitherto unguessed was awakening within me, and that if I could but
restrain the emotions which threatened to dissipate my thoughts, I
should yet hit upon a plan by which my design could be attained with
satisfaction to myself and safety to others.