“You want to be alone, I see,” said he, gently. “Well, I’ll be off.”
As he passed me, he placed his hand for a moment on my shoulder. The
action was tender and sympathetic, but I shrunk under it as if it had
been a blow.
When the door had closed upon him I rose and sat down at the table. I
wrote:
“Dear Dolly: I made a fool of myself to-day and have repented it ever
since in sackcloth and ashes. I had so wished to be alone with you,
dear, and it made me mad that he should come between us. He isn’t a
good companion for you. I must say it, though he is my brother. Had I
thought him so I should have brought him to see you before. I only say
this to explain my anger at his appearance, and now I will drop the
subject for another, which is the real reason of my writing. I had
hoped, so much, dear, to put it to you personally, there in the old
forest that we have spent so many happy hours in, but I missed my
opportunity and now I am in too much of a fever to wait another week.
Dolly, will you be my wife? I can afford a home of my own now, and I
shall be glad and grateful if you will consent to become mistress of
it. I feel that written words can only sound cold at best; so I will
say nothing more here, but just this--if you will have me, I will
strive in all things to be your loving and devoted husband.
“Renalt Trender.”
All in a glow of confident tenderness, inspired by the words I had
written, I added the address and went out and posted my little
missive. Its mere composition, the fact of its now lying in the
postbox, a link between us, gave me a chastened sense of relief and
satisfaction that was restorative to my injured vanity. The mistake of
the morning was reacted upon in time, and I felt that nothing short of
a disruption of natural affinities could interfere to keep back the
inevitable answer. So assured was I, indeed, that I allowed my
thoughts to wander as if for a last farewell, into regions wherein the
simple heart of my present could find no way to enter. “Good-by, Zyp,”
the voiceless soul of me muttered.
That night, looking at Duke’s dark head at rest on the pillow, I
thought: “It will be put right to-morrow or the next day, and you,
dear friend, need never know what might have followed on my abuse of
your trust.” Then I slept peacefully, but my dreams were all of
Zyp--not of the other.
The next day, at the office, I was careful to keep altogether out of
Dolly’s way. Indeed, my work taking me elsewhere, I never once saw her
and went home in the evening unenlightened by a single glance from her
gray eyes. This, the better policy, I thought, would save us both
embarrassment and the annoyance of any curiosity on the part of her
fellow-workers, who would surely be quick to detect a romantic state
of affairs between us.
Nevertheless, despite my self-confidence, I awaited that evening in
some trepidation the answer that was to decide the direction of my
future.