We were sitting at supper when it came, held by one corner in her
apron by our landlady, and my face went pale as I saw the schoolgirl
superscription.
“From Dolly?” murmured Duke.
I nodded and broke the seal. My hands trembled and a mist was before
my eyes. It ran as follows:
“Dear Renny: Thank you very, very much for your kind offer, but I
can’t accept it. I thought I had so much to say, and this is all I can
think of. I hope it won’t hurt you. It can’t, I know, for long,
because now I see I was never really the first in your heart; and your
letter don’t sound as if you will find it very difficult to get over.
Please forgive me if I’m wrong, but anyhow it’s too late now. I might
have once, but I can’t now, Renny. I think perhaps I became a woman
all in a moment yesterday. Please don’t write or say a word to me
again about this, for I mean it really and truly. Your affectionate
friend,
Dolly Mellison.”
“P. S.--It was a little unfair of you, I must say, not to tell me
about that Zyp.”
I sat and returned the letter to its folds quite coolly and calmly. If
there was fire in me, I kept it under then.
“Duke,” I said, quietly, “she has refused me.”
He struggled up from his chair. His face was all amazement and his
voice hoarse.
“Refused you? What have you said? What have you done? Something has
happened, I tell you.”
“Why? She was at perfect liberty to make her own choice.”
“You wrote to her last night?”
“Yes.”
“Why did you? Why didn’t you do as I understood you intended to
yesterday?”
“I asked you to leave that question alone for the present.”
“You’ve no right to. I----” his face flamed up for a moment. But with
a mighty effort he fought it under.
“Renny,” he said, in a subdued voice, “I had no business to speak to
you like that. But you don’t know upon what a wheel of torment I have
been these last weeks. The girl--Dolly--is so much to me, and her
happiness----” he broke off almost with a sob.
I sprung to my feet. I could bear it no longer.
“Think what you like of me!” I cried. “I have made a muddle of the
whole business--a wretched, unhappy muddle. But I suffer, too, Duke. I
never knew what Miss--Miss Mellison was to me till now, when I have
lost her.”
“I don’t ask to see her letter. You haven’t misread it by any
possibility?”
“No--it’s perfectly clear. She refuses me and holds out no hope.”
He set his frowning brows and fell into a gloomy silence. He took no
notice of me even when I told him that I must go into the open air for
awhile to walk and try to find surcease of my racking trouble.