The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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“I did,—at some risk, perhaps. But I wished her to have a friend for
life,—who would cherish her, who would do her more justice than a
coarse and narrow-minded brother, that she has always lavished her
affections on.”
“Yes, my way of befriending her is different from yours; and I’ll tell
you what is my way. I’ll save her from disobeying and disgracing her
father; I’ll save her from throwing herself away on you,—from making
herself a laughing-stock,—from being flouted by a man like _your_
father, because she’s not good enough for his son. You know well enough
what sort of justice and cherishing you were preparing for her. I’m not
to be imposed upon by fine words; I can see what actions mean. Come
away, Maggie.”
He seized Maggie’s right wrist as he spoke, and she put out her left
hand. Philip clasped it an instant, with one eager look, and then
hurried away.
Tom and Maggie walked on in silence for some yards. He was still
holding her wrist tightly, as if he were compelling a culprit from the
scene of action. At last Maggie, with a violent snatch, drew her hand
away, and her pent-up, long-gathered irritation burst into utterance.
“Don’t suppose that I think you are right, Tom, or that I bow to your
will. I despise the feelings you have shown in speaking to Philip; I
detest your insulting, unmanly allusions to his deformity. You have
been reproaching other people all your life; you have been always sure
you yourself are right. It is because you have not a mind large enough
to see that there is anything better than your own conduct and your own
petty aims.”
“Certainly,” said Tom, coolly. “I don’t see that your conduct is
better, or your aims either. If your conduct, and Philip Wakem’s
conduct, has been right, why are you ashamed of its being known? Answer
me that. I know what I have aimed at in my conduct, and I’ve succeeded;
pray, what good has your conduct brought to you or any one else?”
“I don’t want to defend myself,” said Maggie, still with vehemence: “I
know I’ve been wrong,—often, continually. But yet, sometimes when I
have done wrong, it has been because I have feelings that you would be
the better for, if you had them. If _you_ were in fault ever, if you
had done anything very wrong, I should be sorry for the pain it brought
you; I should not want punishment to be heaped on you. But you have
always enjoyed punishing me; you have always been hard and cruel to me;
even when I was a little girl, and always loved you better than any one
else in the world, you would let me go crying to bed without forgiving
me. You have no pity; you have no sense of your own imperfection and
your own sins. It is a sin to be hard; it is not fitting for a mortal,
for a Christian. You are nothing but a Pharisee. You thank God for
nothing but your own virtues; you think they are great enough to win
you everything else. You have not even a vision of feelings by the side
of which your shining virtues are mere darkness!”