“No; I can’t marry Miss Tulliver, even if she would have me, if I have
only my own resources to maintain her with. I have been brought up to
no profession. I can’t offer her poverty as well as deformity.”
“Ah, _there_ is a reason for your clinging to me, doubtless,” said
Wakem, still bitterly, though Philip’s last words had given him a pang;
they had stirred a feeling which had been a habit for a quarter of a
century. He threw himself into the chair again.
“I expected all this,” said Philip. “I know these scenes are often
happening between father and son. If I were like other men of my age, I
might answer your angry words by still angrier; we might part; I should
marry the woman I love, and have a chance of being as happy as the
rest. But if it will be a satisfaction to you to annihilate the very
object of everything you’ve done for me, you have an advantage over
most fathers; you can completely deprive me of the only thing that
would make my life worth having.”
Philip paused, but his father was silent.
“You know best what satisfaction you would have, beyond that of
gratifying a ridiculous rancor worthy only of wandering savages.”
“Ridiculous rancor!” Wakem burst out. “What do you mean? Damn it! is a
man to be horsewhipped by a boor and love him for it? Besides, there’s
that cold, proud devil of a son, who said a word to me I shall not
forget when we had the settling. He would be as pleasant a mark for a
bullet as I know, if he were worth the expense.”
“I don’t mean your resentment toward them,” said Philip, who had his
reasons for some sympathy with this view of Tom, “though a feeling of
revenge is not worth much, that you should care to keep it. I mean your
extending the enmity to a helpless girl, who has too much sense and
goodness to share their narrow prejudices. _She_ has never entered into
the family quarrels.”
“What does that signify? We don’t ask what a woman does; we ask whom
she belongs to. It’s altogether a degrading thing to you, to think of
marrying old Tulliver’s daughter.”
For the first time in the dialogue, Philip lost some of his
self-control, and coloured with anger.
“Miss Tulliver,” he said, with bitter incisiveness, “has the only
grounds of rank that anything but vulgar folly can suppose to belong to
the middle class; she is thoroughly refined, and her friends, whatever
else they may be, are respected for irreproachable honour and
integrity. All St Ogg’s, I fancy, would pronounce her to be more than
my equal.”
Wakem darted a glance of fierce question at his son; but Philip was not
looking at him, and with a certain penitent consciousness went on, in a
few moments, as if in amplification of his last words,—
“Find a single person in St Ogg’s who will not tell you that a
beautiful creature like her would be throwing herself away on a
pitiable object like me.”