Maggie, too, was not long before she re-entered. All the pride of her
nature was stung into activity; the hateful weakness which had dragged
her within reach of this wound to her self-respect had at least wrought
its own cure. The thoughts and temptations of the last month should all
be flung away into an unvisited chamber of memory. There was nothing to
allure her now; duty would be easy, and all the old calm purposes would
reign peacefully once more. She re-entered the drawing-room still with
some excited brightness in her face, but with a sense of proud
self-command that defied anything to agitate her. She refused to dance
again, but she talked quite readily and calmly with every one who
addressed her. And when they got home that night, she kissed Lucy with
a free heart, almost exulting in this scorching moment, which had
delivered her from the possibility of another word or look that would
have the stamp of treachery toward that gentle, unsuspicious sister.
The next morning Maggie did not set off to Basset quite so soon as she
had expected. Her mother was to accompany her in the carriage, and
household business could not be dispatched hastily by Mrs Tulliver. So
Maggie, who had been in a hurry to prepare herself, had to sit waiting,
equipped for the drive, in the garden. Lucy was busy in the house
wrapping up some bazaar presents for the younger ones at Basset, and
when there was a loud ring at the door-bell, Maggie felt some alarm
lest Lucy should bring out Stephen to her; it was sure to be Stephen.
But presently the visitor came out into the garden alone, and seated
himself by her on the garden-chair. It was not Stephen.
“We can just catch the tips of the Scotch firs, Maggie, from this
seat,” said Philip.
They had taken each other’s hands in silence, but Maggie had looked at
him with a more complete revival of the old childlike affectionate
smile than he had seen before, and he felt encouraged.
“Yes,” she said, “I often look at them, and wish I could see the low
sunlight on the stems again. But I have never been that way but
once,—to the churchyard with my mother.”
“I have been there, I go there, continually,” said Philip. “I have
nothing but the past to live upon.”
A keen remembrance and keen pity impelled Maggie to put her hand in
Philip’s. They had so often walked hand in hand!
“I remember all the spots,” she said,—“just where you told me of
particular things, beautiful stories that I had never heard of before.”
“You will go there again soon, won’t you, Maggie?” said Philip, getting
timid. “The Mill will soon be your brother’s home again.”
“Yes; but I shall not be there,” said Maggie. “I shall only hear of
that happiness. I am going away again; Lucy has not told you, perhaps?”
“Then the future will never join on to the past again, Maggie? That
book is quite closed?”