The Mill on the Floss — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mill on the Floss
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The gray eyes that had so often looked up at her with entreating
worship, looked up at her now, with a last struggling ray of hope in
them, and Maggie met them with her large sincere gaze.
“That book never will be closed, Philip,” she said, with grave sadness;
“I desire no future that will break the ties of the past. But the tie
to my brother is one of the strongest. I can do nothing willingly that
will divide me always from him.”
“Is that the only reason that would keep us apart forever, Maggie?”
said Philip, with a desperate determination to have a definite answer.
“The only reason,” said Maggie, with calm decision. And she believed
it. At that moment she felt as if the enchanted cup had been dashed to
the ground. The reactionary excitement that gave her a proud
self-mastery had not subsided, and she looked at the future with a
sense of calm choice.
They sat hand in hand without looking at each other or speaking for a
few minutes; in Maggie’s mind the first scenes of love and parting were
more present than the actual moment, and she was looking at Philip in
the Red Deeps.
Philip felt that he ought to have been thoroughly happy in that answer
of hers; she was as open and transparent as a rock-pool. Why was he not
thoroughly happy? Jealousy is never satisfied with anything short of an
omniscience that would detect the subtlest fold of the heart.
Chapter XI.
In the Lane
Maggie had been four days at her aunt Moss’s giving the early June
sunshine quite a new brightness in the care-dimmed eyes of that
affectionate woman, and making an epoch for her cousins great and
small, who were learning her words and actions by heart, as if she had
been a transient avatar of perfect wisdom and beauty.
She was standing on the causeway with her aunt and a group of cousins
feeding the chickens, at that quiet moment in the life of the farmyards
before the afternoon milking-time. The great buildings round the hollow
yard were as dreary and tumbledown as ever, but over the old
garden-wall the straggling rose-bushes were beginning to toss their
summer weight, and the gray wood and old bricks of the house, on its
higher level, had a look of sleepy age in the broad afternoon sunlight,
that suited the quiescent time. Maggie, with her bonnet over her arm,
was smiling down at the hatch of small fluffy chickens, when her aunt
exclaimed,—
“Goodness me! who is that gentleman coming in at the gate?”
It was a gentleman on a tall bay horse; and the flanks and neck of the
horse were streaked black with fast riding. Maggie felt a beating at
head and heart, horrible as the sudden leaping to life of a savage
enemy who had feigned death.
“Who is it, my dear?” said Mrs Moss, seeing in Maggie’s face the
evidence that she knew.
“It is Mr Stephen Guest,” said Maggie, rather faintly. “My cousin
Lucy’s—a gentleman who is very intimate at my cousin’s.”
Stephen was already close to them, had jumped off his horse, and now
raised his hat as he advanced.