The Mysterious Mr. Miller — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mysterious Mr. Miller
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"Yes, it is indeed curious," I said. "Our circumstances are, in a
measure, identical. We have both been the victims of dire misfortunes,
both broken by the tragedy of an unhappy love. But you have told me
hardly anything concerning yourself," I added.
The laces of her muslin blouse rose slowly and fell again. In that dim
light I detected a hardness at the corners of her mouth, a hardness
that, to me, was all-sufficient proof of the bitterness wearing out her
young heart.
"Myself!" she echoed sadly. "What need I say about myself? It is of
the past, and the memory of it all is a very bitter one. Like you, I
believed that happiness was to be mine, the more so, because my father
entirely approved of our union. He made confidential inquiries
concerning him, and found that he was all that he represented himself to
be. But love and happiness were not for me. I, alas! am one of those
who are debarred the sweetness of life," she added hoarsely, her small
white hands clenching themselves, as thoughts of the past crowded upon
her.
For some time we were again silent. I was anxious to know the truth of
the love romance of my sweet-faced little friend--the girl whom Sammy
had denounced as an adventuress. Yet surely there was nothing of the
adventuress about her as she stood there in her plain white frock amid
that purely English scene. I glanced at her countenance and saw that it
was pale and agitated, and that her nervous lips were trembling. Her
chin had sunk upon her breast and she stood deep in thought as though
unconscious of my presence.
"Where did it occur? Here?"
"No, abroad," she answered, in a thin, mechanical voice. "I met him
when we were living at Enghien, and from the first moment of our meeting
we discovered that by some strange magnetism we were drawn irresistibly
together. He was a foreigner, it is true, but his mother had been
English, and his father was a Chilian."
"Chilian!" I cried, in a voice of surprise. But she never guessed the
reason of my amazement.
"Yes. My father discovered that we met in secret, and then invited him
to dine with us. From that evening he came daily out from Paris, and we
used to spend each afternoon boating on the lake or playing tennis on
the island. Before long we had pledged our love, and then commenced
days of bliss such as I had never before experienced. I knew at last
what was meant by perfect happiness, for we adored each other. I loved
him just as dearly as Ella loved you. I would have died for him. Yet
in all too short a time the blow fell upon me--the blow that has crushed
all life from me, that has already made me a world-weary woman before my
time."
"And what was the end?" I asked with deep sympathy, yet, alas! knowing
too well the story of the tragedy.