The Mysterious Mr. Miller — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Mysterious Mr. Miller
John Stuart Mill · en
"She wrote to me twice. One letter I received in Rome a month
afterwards, and the second followed me about some weeks, and at last
found me at Lindau, on the Lake of Constance. Both letters were full of
her own unhappiness. In the first she reproached herself bitterly for
having lied to the man she really loved--though she never mentioned your
name--and said that she was back at Wichenford, but for her the world
was dead. The man whom she had dismissed had left her in disgust and
despair and had gone abroad, whither she knew not. A friend of yours
had, it seemed, told her that you had gone to Algeria, and her letter
concluded with the words: `I am alone to blame for this, yet how could
I, in the circumstances, have acted otherwise?'"
"And the second letter?" I asked eagerly.
"It was written a month later, from Blumenthal's shooting-box near Blair
Athol. She and her father were guests there at the great house-party
consisting mostly of wealthy City men and their wives. She described it
and said how she hated it all. She had, she told me, tried to escape.
She had even thought of writing to you to tell you the truth and ask
your counsel, yet what use was it when she knew that she must save her
father from the ruin that threatened. Wichenford Place had been the
home of the Murrays ever since the days of James the First, when the
King himself, granted it to his faithful partisan, Donald Murray of
Parton, in Dumfriesshire. No Murray had ever before mortgaged it,
therefore it was clearly her duty to her family to redeem it from the
hands of usurers and vandals, even at cost of her own happiness."
"A noble sacrifice!" I sighed.
"Yes, Mr Leaf. She was a noble girl," declared my handsome companion.
"I, who knew her through ten years or so, knew her, perhaps, better than
even you yourself did. The Little Madonna was never accused of an
unkind or unjust action."
"And after that letter?"
"A few months later she came to visit us at Enghien. She and her father
were in Paris, where she was buying her trousseau. But she made no
mention of Blumenthal. Afterwards we were continually moving from place
to place, and if she wrote, her letter never reached me. I heard no
more."
A long deep silence fell between us. We were still standing there in
the grey twilight at a small gate that led into the next field, our path
still continuing beside the stream.
"Strange that it should be I who should tell you the truth," she
remarked, almost as though speaking to herself. "You, a perfect
stranger, offered to do me a service--indeed you have done me a very
great service by restoring that letter to me--and in return, I have been
able to tell you the truth regarding your lost love," and she looked
into my face with her sad, serious eyes.