The other Miller girl — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The other Miller girl
John Stuart Mill · en
Mr. Langley was nearer fifty than forty, though only by a little. He
was, in a way, ‘settled’ in his habits. He liked and affected, on all
days save the Sabbath, old clothes and old shoes, though both were
always scrupulously neat, and his shabbiness was never otherwise than
picturesque and attractive. Though he went about constantly among
his people, he led a lonely, pensive life in the big, empty, shabby
parsonage, almost as little aware, it would seem, of the existence of
his invalid wife as were his parishioners who practically thought of
him as a bachelor. And truly, since his wife had taken to her room
upwards of twenty years ago, and shut herself out from everyone, he had
been almost as literally widowed as if she, too, lay in the enclosure
marked by the little marble lamb in the cemetery on the hillside.
For all that, Russell Langley had still somehow kept intact through
all the years the heart of youth--almost of boyhood. Not that his
parishioners were aware of it, except indirectly. Most of them regarded
their beloved pastor and bore themselves towards him as if he had
something like three score years to his credit--or debit. The boys
and girls, it is true, the children and even the babies found him
singularly companionable,--but so did the very oldest. The greybeards
of the congregation and those who were contemporaries of Russell
Langley’s grandparents talked to him as they would have talked to the
latter had they been living and had their lines been cast in Farleigh
instead of in Albany, New York. His youthful appearance impressed
them only in the sense that he was a fine figure in the pulpit and a
graceful presiding officer in the town hall whenever the services of
such an one were required. His tall, slim, indolently erect figure was
attributed to the fact that he had played base-ball at college, and the
lack of lines in his face to freedom from family cares. For, when all
is said, an invalid wife whom a clergyman sees no more frequently than
an invalid parishioner and with whom he holds no conversation whatever
is scarcely to be classed among family cares.
It was only the other Miller girl who recognised the elusive quality
that made up a large part of the charm which everyone felt in the
man. Likewise when this quality had taken flight, temporarily or
irretrievably, it was Anna Miller who guessed the secret of its
loss. Everyone knew that the minister had never forgotten his little
daughter who had died. Ella May’s name was constantly upon his lips.
But Anna said to herself that the light of enthusiasm in his eye and
the buoyancy of his step had been largely due to the thought of a child
toddling or tripping along beside him.