The other Miller girl — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The other Miller girl
John Stuart Mill · en
Experience had made Anna Miller prematurely middle-aged in her grasp
of reality,--experience acting upon that endowment of good nature
which everyone granted her. Running away as a child from the dreary,
shiftless household that had been her home, for five years the girl
had supported herself in the great city to which she had fled, to the
extent of keeping soul and body together, successively as errand girl
to a dressmaker, as bundle and cash-girl, and finally as sales-girl in
a department store. But all the while something within her--perhaps
the adventurous instinct that had hurtled her forth--had responded to
the clarion which is within the din of every struggle. She had known
the extremes of heat and cold, of loneliness and hunger, but she had
made light of them. She had clung to her shred of vanity, masquerading
on an empty stomach, and cheering long hours in her cramped, dreary
hall-bedroom arranging her tangle of pale yellow hair in various
fashions before her tiny cracked mirror, trying on scraps of finery,
and coquetting with the reflection which was always picturesque no
matter how absurdly arrayed. She had ‘bluffed’ her way through the
lean, meagre years, her shockingly slangy expression being a veritable
gospel of cheer to her fellow clerks and lodgers, and the snatches of
ugly popular songs on her lips, real melody which echoed in her own
heart as well as in theirs. And she had ‘won out’ triumphantly with her
natural sweetness of disposition not only unimpaired but strengthened
and enriched, with a keenness of mind which is one of the ends of
education, and with that curiously mature and humourous outlook instead
of the bitterness which might have been expected.
On the day following that on which Mr. Langley had first heard her
referred to as the other Miller girl, Anna was in her usual place in
Miss Penny’s pew at the opening of the Sunday morning service. She
was rather preoccupied by her new suit. Rusty had had to have a new
one when she went to college, and she had insisted upon Anna’s having
one at the same time. Rusty’s was brown, the peculiar russet shade
that matched her hair exactly and was peculiarly Rusty’s, loose in the
jacket, and plain. Anna’s was green, more elaborate than Rusty’s and
not in nearly so good taste, as Anna knew well. But it was exceedingly
smart and very becoming and the girl was, as she declared, ‘crazy over
it.’ Clever with her fingers, she had made a green velvet hat to match
the suit, a three-cornered affair which did not fall far short of being
utterly absurd, but which, set jauntily upon her riotous yellow hair,
certainly made her little doll-face bewitching.