The Shadow of the Past — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Shadow of the Past
John Stuart Mill · en
"I confess I haven't given much thought to the matter, but, since you
ask me, I suppose there might be some blind purpose even in the life of
a mole. It's all rather futile though, isn't it? What are you doing?
... What am I doing? ... The obvious answer, of course, is sitting on
the shore. Well, that's about all there is to it--sitting on the shore
and talking. Later, well take the plunge and swim out to the deep sea--
and that's the finish. I like best sitting on the shore. It's very
pleasant, isn't it? Say you are enjoying it--and don't try to rouse
ambition in me; it's a mean thing at best."
"It's a fine thing," she contradicted. "Very little has ever been
achieved without it."
He sat up straighter.
"I'll prove my definition to be more correct than yours," he insisted.
"What is ambition?--a desire for power, for superiority. It's utterly
selfish, an egotistical quality. It springs from greed of gain, either
of recognition or of material benefit. Can that be considered other
than an ignoble sentiment?"
"Not as you put it," she dissented. "But I dispute your definition.
Ambition is a lofty endeavour to excel."
"Well, it may be... sometimes it is," he allowed. "But in this very
human world it is oftener the more sordid sentiment I described. I
merely dragged the wings from your ideal and brought it down to earth."
"I believe that is what you enjoy doing," she said, a touch of reproach
in her voice.
"What do we know better than this dear mother earth?" he asked, and
pressed his hand heavily upon the sand. "She is altogether beautiful,
save where man, in the determined pursuit of ambition, has scarred and
changed her face. That idea of living at a high mental altitude is mere
presumption. It's an age of posing. We catch at a phrase that sounds
fine, and adopt it because of its fine sound. There isn't any need to
live up to the sentiment it expresses--very often it doesn't express
much. There's a cult that's called, I believe, the Higher Thought
Movement. People read books--or they don't read them, but simply own
them and talk vaguely of the higher things they express. It doesn't go
far beyond talking as a rule. I never met any one who could transmit
higher thought. It's another catch phrase."
"Doesn't every one have those thoughts at some time?" she asked quietly,
without resenting his speech as he had half expected her to do.
"Higher thoughts? ... Yes, I suppose so. Only one doesn't talk about
them."
"No," she returned; "you are right. One would have difficulty in
expressing those things--particularly in high sounding phrases."
"Truth is never adorned," he said--"which possibly accounts for the
frequency with which she is disregarded."
Abruptly he stood up, and held out both hands in invitation to her to
rise.
"The moon's getting up," he said. "Come nearer to the water's edge and
see it top the mountain."
CHAPTER SIX.