The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
It seemed to Esme as they walked rapidly along in the clear light air
that nature revealed herself in her fairest mood that morning. Surely
never had sunlight shone more golden, never had the blue of the sky
appeared more intense, nor the veld glowed with such splendour of
colour. A blue haze, liquid in the golden light, quivered before her
vision like a thing alive with iridescent wings outspread in the
untempered sunlight that poured itself out upon the earth with a
brilliance hurtful to the eyes. Everywhere her gaze turned some fresh
wonder met the view. Green mingled with brown and orange, shot with
vivid colours, where the hardy veld flowers blossomed in the grass and
among the piles of hot-looking yellow stones by the side of the road.
It was a scene of wide and glowing colour, of immense blue distances lit
by the fierce flame of the sun.
How much of her enjoyment was due to the beauty of the day, and how much
to the companionship of the man who shared these things with her, she
did not at the time pause to consider. Her senses were steeped in the
delight which is born of the mysterious magic of beauty. Everywhere she
looked she saw this magic pictured; in her heart she felt its influence;
it permeated all her being, all her brain. And again the expectation of
adventure gripped her. The belief that something was about to happen,
something of tremendous personal importance, took hold of her
imagination, stirred her deeply with a mingling of awe and joyous
anticipation like nothing she had ever known before. Something was
going to happen to her; something surely had happened to her already to
work this change in her calm practical nature. For the first time in
her quiet uneventful life her latent womanhood rose to the surface and
found expression in a number of new emotions, emotions which she vaguely
realised without understanding their significance.
She felt intensely alive. Her face was radiant with the joy of life.
But she did not talk much. Hallam was not a talkative companion, and
his silence affected her. Occasionally he paused to draw her attention
to a particular spot; and once he called a halt and seated himself
beside her in the shade of some bushes to rest. When he was seated he
lit his pipe. He had brought apples with him, and he offered Esme one,
and a knife to peel it with. She returned the knife and set her teeth
in the fruit and ate it with keen enjoyment.
"I get these from a farm in the neighbourhood," he explained. "You
should walk there one day. They grow quite good fruit, and they are
always glad to see visitors. It's not far from the hotel."
"You appear to know every one around here," she remarked.
"I have been here some months," he replied.
"And you seek your friends outside the hotel?" she said.