The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
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"I neither seek nor find friends," he answered bluntly. "I have some
slight acquaintance with these people which they do not discourage
because it is profitable to them. I do not understand disinterested
friendship. I do not believe in it."
"Which is to say you have never felt a disinterested friendship for any
one," she said. "You don't know what you miss."
"In that case, I miss nothing," he replied. "One has to be conscious of
a need in order to appreciate its absence. Life is a huge business of
bluff. A few persons only remain sincere because they will not take the
trouble to pose. To be sincere is to become unpopular. But
unpopularity is less irksome than maintaining a pose of sociability. I
believe there are very few people who honestly love their kind."
"That is too cynical a belief to be worth discussing," she said, pausing
with the half eaten fruit in her hand to look at him with puzzled eyes.
He seemed amused rather than vexed at her answer, and smoked for a
moment reflectively before resuming the talk.
"I doubt whether you are quite sincere in making that assertion," he
contended. "It is an easy way of disposing of a subject which one feels
unequal to combat in argument. Friendship is mere sentiment, so is love
of one's fellows; let either interfere with self-interest, and what
becomes of it? It is only with a few rare souls that altruism becomes a
workable theory."
"So long as there are a few souls great enough for disinterested love,"
she said quietly, "there is a little light of hope in the world."
She got up and threw away the remains of the apple as though her
pleasure in the fruit were spoiled. She hated this cynical bitter talk;
at the moment she almost hated the speaker. Because of his own wasted
life, his morbid views and perverted ideals, he was trying to poison her
mind with the hopeless doctrine of his deliberate self-deception. There
was something mean in her opinion in this wilful attempt to darken the
world for others.
"Let us go on," she said. "Active exercise puts you in a better mood.
I do not like your ideas. I'm sorry; but I don't wish to listen to
them."
"No one likes my ideas," he answered, rising. "I don't like them
myself. Truth is rarely agreeable; that is why so many people affect
lies. I think we had better turn and see about breakfast. Your lack of
patience suggests to me that you are hungry."
She broke into a laugh. At the sound of her mirth his face cleared
immediately; he stood still in the road and looked at her curiously.
"I am glad that the sun still shines," he said, and started again to
walk along the uphill path.