The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
He talked quickly, eagerly. His face was flushed, and a sort of boyish
shyness showed in his eyes. She regarded him with an air of faint
perplexity and said nothing. His abrupt confidences were disconcerting.
"You won't forget these few days altogether, will you?" he urged.
Her composed face, her air of increasing surprise, damped his ardour
considerably. The light died out of his eyes.
"I shan't forget a single day of all the days I spend here," she
replied, not knowing that she was unkind, not meaning to be.
She was not thinking of Sinclair. Her appreciation had nothing to do
with him. She was reviewing her earlier impressions, feeling again the
joy which the sense of beauty gives; the complete satisfaction of that
walk towards the sunrise, and the magic splendour of the morning when
the world stirred out of slumber, dew-drenched and asparkle in the
golden radiance of the newly risen sun. She had realised, as she
stepped confidently forward in its warmth, the wonder and the goodness
of being alive. That sense of well-being remained with her, would
remain with her when the boy, who looked to her for a response she was
unable to make, was gone down the mountain road out of her dream. He
was no part of the dream: he was merely a transitory figure flitting
through the gold-blue mist.
"I don't know what it is about the place which grips me so, unless it is
that it is unlike any place I've ever seen. I love the brooding silence
and the warmth and the soft mountain air. There is health in every
breath of it. Down at the Bay the winds rend one. It's all heat and
noise and rush."
"Oh! the Bay's not half a bad place," he protested. "Most people at the
beginning of a holiday feel as you do; but it wears off. You will be
jolly well bored at the end of a fortnight. Travelling always along one
old road grows monotonous. And whichever way you go it's the same old
road. You may strike across the veld, but sooner or later you have to
come back to the road."
"After all,"--she looked at him quickly,--"it isn't monotony that bores
one really. We like doing the familiar thing."
"Not necessarily," he returned. "When it is a case of returning to
work, the familiar thing becomes a nuisance. I wish you were driving
down the mountain with me. Don't come out to see the start. I don't
wish you to make one of the crowd. I'm going to say good-bye to you
here. I am leaving my racquet behind. I want you to use it, will you?
I've another at my digs, so you needn't feel you are depriving me. I
want you to have it."
"That's very kind of you," she said, touched by this act of generosity,
and secretly embarrassed. She could not without ungraciousness refuse,
but she wished that he had not placed her under this obligation.
"It will serve to pass an hour or two when you weary of the same old
road," he said, smiling.