The Stronger Influence — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The Stronger Influence
John Stuart Mill · en
The fulness of life made perfect by a perfect human love lifted Esme so
completely out of the past that all her life which had gone before
seemed as a dream, a thing indistinct and distant, with the haunting
sense of unreality which clings to dreams in defiance of the vivid
impression sometimes left on the mind. To look back on the days of her
girlhood was like looking back on the life of some one else. The little
hot bedroom, shaded by the pink oleander tree, the life of continuous
discords in her sister's home, the daily drudgery of instructing
unmusical pupils in an art they would never acquire, these things were
as remote as if they had never been. She looked back on those days
wonderingly, comparing them with the present; and the present seemed the
more beautiful by comparison with those earlier years.
After their year of wandering Hallam and his wife returned to the Cape.
No country they had seen appealed to either with the same magnetic
attraction which the Peninsular held for both. The house which Hallam
took was not large; but it was luxurious in its appointments, and was
beautifully situated, high, and surrounded with fine old trees which
afforded shade and coolness on the hottest day. From the windows of her
new home, as from the garden, Esme had a view of the wide blue Atlantic
stretching away endlessly to the far horizon; while, like a giant wall,
rugged and grey, and towering in its immensity above the house, as it
towered above the city, was the great square mountain, blue-grey in the
sunlight, patterned gorgeously with the flowers which carpeted its
slopes. And at night there was the sea still, darkly swelling,
mysterious, remote, restless, a black expanse moving ceaselessly under
the motionless star-lit darkness above; beating with passionate energy
upon the shore and tossing its foam-flecked waters against the rocks:
there, too, was the mountain, stark and dominating, black and sharply
defined against the sky.