The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8
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Tea came. Lights went up all over the room; brilliant light shone down
upon the stately Queen Anne service, shone through the thinness of the
shallow flowered cups.
“Tea,” cried Miriam, through the shifting of chairs that followed the
coming of the light, “should never be drunk from cold white cups.”
Miss Holland laughed her laugh, and began with large, composed movements
to pour out. At once her appearance was redeemed. For a moment Miriam
sat basking in her manner. Then her eyes were drawn to two tall figures
risen together from deep chairs far away.
“One ought,” she went on to lend a casual air to her first inspection of
fellow-members, “to drink down to a pattern.” They were without hats and
therefore residents. And unexpectedly impressive.
“Good faience,” Miss Holland was saying, “is certainly a great
enhancement of the charm of the tea-table.”
They were most strange. They radiated a definitely familiar quality as
they stood there gazing down the room. At nothing. There was no trace of
the awareness of exposure that set the faces of the women sitting about
within view, large-hatted in deep chairs; awareness or careful
unawareness. Yet as they moved, now, slowly along the clear spaces of
the room, they were visibly the figures of an ordeal. Stately in their
white-robed splendour, they were still piteous. Something was dispelling
the conventional charm usually inseparable from the spectacle of beauty,
tall and well-clothed, moving slowly through a room.
The depth of her interest inspired Miriam to feed her conversation with
Miss Holland and remain at the same time free to watch. The mystery
cleared as the figures drew near. They were sisters, the one quite
ordinary, fully aware and fitted out with the regulation feminine charm
of bearing. Conscious of piled brown hair, of brilliant oval cheeks, of
dark and lively eyes. The upturning bow of her mouth was set in a smile.
So it would be set, thought Miriam, years ahead, when the nose and the
chin began to approach each other. She was the elder. But her few extra
years, the ardour of her head and her splendid form, were in leash to
the being of the other. She it was who came unseeing and produced the
strange effect. Slender, in childish muslin beside her sister’s opulent
sophisticated lace, she was formidable. Below her dark hair, drawn flat
to the shape of her head, yet set round it like a mist, was the strong
calm face of a healthy child, a mask clear of expression and colourless
but for the eyes that were startling. Life flowed from her eyes as if it
would wither the air before them. Where was she? Whence, round-faced
child, had she gathered her wealth of suffering? Her beauty was the
beauty of a transfiguration. Here, on this plain afternoon, at the
Belmont, amongst friends.
Reluctantly, as they came quite near, Miriam averted her screened gaze
and met the eyes of the other. Here was conciliation, a deprecating
fearfulness changing suddenly as she came in view of Miss Holland.