The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The trap : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 8
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But the centre of her interest, the thing that was making her talk grow
absent and careless, and consist more and more of sounds in response to
Miss Holland’s lingering consideration of all that had pleased her, was
the way that unawares during their long sitting the room had come to
life. Nothing now looked dingy. There was a warm brightness; within the
air.
When their talk had drifted to a pause and she was alone, she ruefully
regarded the day’s interchange. Shadowless only by being an excursion
into a world she had long ago ceased to inhabit. By using only materials
that would make common ground, she had woven a fabric of false
impressions.
Again and again as they talked the set of circumstances that were the
zest of her personal life had risen before her, in terms such as Miss
Holland would use in describing them, and made a preoccupation that had
kept her a bright and interesting talker. Yet Miss Holland was aware.
Though in her eagerness for every word she had shown only awareness of a
different reach and different perceptions, she knew, without recognising
its nature, that between them there was a gulf.
To keep back even half-accepted points of view was not fair play.
Brought uneasiness. Yet why tell her of things that might not happen?
CHAPTER III
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Serenity had retreated outdoors, and increased there. To-day, in the
space between the week’s work and the week-end with its pattern
ready-set, was serenity immeasurable; given by autumn. Autumn gleaming
beyond the park railings through sunlit mist.
Autumn had accumulated unawares. But this meeting with it had begun
early this morning in the balmy stillness of the square. Just when the
lame old woman had crossed the street. Cheerfully; unhampered by heat or
cold or wind.
It had made the happiness of the morning’s work, its gaiety and ease.
And now at its midday fulness it made the visit of the Brooms—so central
as she had sat at her ledgers—retreat into the background. This still
air passing into her spirit, the great trees standing in it, thick with
coloured leaves upon the spread of misty grass, stamping their image,
would remain when the rest of the holiday was forgotten.