and still have about half the four pounds five; about four pounds
fifteen altogether; enough to hire a bicycle for the month and buy some
summer blouses for the holiday.... She pocketed the heavy purse. Why was
there always a feeling of guilt about a salary? It was the same every
week. The life at Wimpole Street was so full and so interesting; she was
learning so much and seeing so much. Salary was out of place--a payment
for leading a glorious life, half of which was entirely her own. The
extra five shillings was a present from the Orlys and Mr. Hancock. She
could manage on the pound. The new sum was wealth, superfluity. They
would expect more of her in future. Surely it would be possible to give
more; with so much money; to find the spirit to come punctually at nine;
always to have everything in complete readiness in all three surgeries;
to keep all the books up to date.... But they would not have given her
the rise at the end of five months if they had not felt she was worth
it.... It would make all the difference to the summer. Hopefully she
took a loose sheet of paper and made two lists of the four pages of the
week's entries--dissecting them under the heads of workshop and surgery.
About fifteen pounds had been spent. Again and again with heating head
she added her pages of small sums, getting each time slightly different
results, until at last they balanced with the dissected lists--twice in
succession. The hall clock struck one and Mr. Leyton came downstairs
rattling and rattled into her room. "How d'you like this get up?" The
general effect of the blue grey uniform and brown leather belt and
bandolier was pleasing. "Oh, _jolly_" she said abstractedly to his
waiting figure. He clattered downstairs to lunch. _Everybody_ had
outside interests. Mr. Hancock would be on the Broads by now. Her
afternoon beckoned, easy with the superfluity of money. Anxiously she
counted over the balance in the cash box. It was two and ninepence
short. Damnation. Damnation. "Put it down to stamps--or miscellanea; not
accounted for." She looked back through her entries. Stamps, one pound,
at the beginning of the week. Stamps, ten shillings yesterday. It could
not be that. It was some carelessness--something not entered--or a
miscalculation. Something she had paid out to the workshop in the middle
of a rush and forgotten to put down. She went back through her entries
one by one with flaring cheeks; recovering the history of the week and
recalling incidents. Nothing came that would account for the
discrepancy. It was simply a mistake. Something had been put down wrong.
The money had been spent. But was it a workshop or a surgery expense
that had gone wrong? "Postage etc.: two and nine," would make it all
right--but the account would not be right. Either the workshop or the
surgery account must suffer. It would be another of those little
inaccurate spots that came every few weeks; that she would always have
to remember ... her mind toiled, goaded and hot.... Mr.