The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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stopping materials were anywhere near running short and the gold drawer
was filled. She examined the drawers that held the less frequently used
fittings and materials, conducting her operations noiselessly without
impeding Mr. Hancock's perpetual movements to and fro between the chair
and the instrument cabinet. Meanwhile the dressing of Lady Cazalet's
painful tooth went quietly on and Mr. Leyton was waiting, hoping for her
assistance downstairs. There was no excuse for waiting upstairs any
longer. She went to the writing table and hung over the appointment
book.
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It was a busy day. He would hardly have half an hour for lunch.... She
examined the names carefully, one by one, and wrote against one "ask
address," underlined and against another "enquire for brother--ill."
Lady Cazalet drew a deep sigh ... she had been to other dentists. But
perhaps they were good ones. Perhaps she was about thirty ... had she
ever gone through a green baize door and seen a fat common little man
with smooth sly eyes standing waiting for her in a dark stuffy room
smelling of creosote? Even if she had always been to good ones they were
not Mr. Hancock. They were dentists. Cheerful ordinary men with ordinary
voices and laughs, thinking about all manner of things. Or apparently
bland, with ingratiating manners. Perhaps a few of them, some of his
friends and some of the young men he had trained were something like
him. Interested in dentistry and the way it was all developing, some of
them more enthusiastic and interested in certain special things than he
was. But no one could be quite like him. No other patients had the lot
of his patients. No other dentist was so completely conscious of the
patient all the time, as if he were in the chair himself. No other
dentist went on year after year remaining sensitive to everything the
patient had to endure. No one else was so unsparing of himself ...
children coming eagerly in for their dentistry, sitting in the chair
with slack limbs and wide open mouths and tranquil eyes ... small bodies
braced and tense, fat hands splayed out tightly on the too-big arms of
the chair in determination to bear the moment of pain bravely for
him.... She wandered to the corner cupboard and opened it and gazed idly
in. But none of them knew what it cost.... "I think you won't have any
more pain with that; I'll just put in a dressing for the present"--she
was Lady Cazalet again, without tooth-ache, and that awful feeling that
you know your body won't last ... they did not know what it cost. What
always doing the best for the patient _meant_. Perhaps they knew in a
way; or knew something and did not know what it was ... there would be
something different in Mr. Hancock's expression, especially in the three
quarters view when his face was turned away towards the instrument
cabinet, if he saved his nerves and energy and money by doing things
less considerately, not perpetually having the instruments sharpened and