The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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He was coming downstairs. Her hands went to the pile of letters and
busily sorted them. Through the hall. In here. Leisurely. How are you
getting on? Half amused. Half solicitous. The first weeks. The first
day. She had only just come. Perhaps there would be the hand on the back
of the chair again as before he discovered the stiffness like his own
stiffness. He was coming right round to the side of the chair into the
light, waiting, without having said anything. She seemed to sit through
a long space waiting for him to speak, in a radiance that shaped and
smoothed her face as she turned slowly and considered the blunted grave
features, their curious light, and met the smiling grey eyes. They were
not observing the confusion on the table. He had something to say that
had nothing to do with the work. She waited startled into an overflowing
of the curious radiance, deepening the light in which they were grouped.
"Are you busy?" "No," said Miriam in quiet abandonment. "I want your
advice on a question of decoration" he pursued smiling down at her with
the expression of a truant schoolboy and standing aside as she rose. "My
patient's put off" he added confidentially, holding the door wide for
her. Miriam trotted incredulously upstairs in front of him and in at the
open surgery door and stood contemplating the room from the middle of
the great square of soft thick grey green carpet with her back to the
great triple window and the littered remains of a long sitting.
Perhaps a question of decoration meant altering the positions of some of
the pictures. She glanced about at them, enclosed in her daily
unchanging unsatisfying impressions--the green landscape plumy with
meadow-sweet, but not letting you through to wander in fields, the
little soft bright coloury painting of the doorway of St. Mark's--San
Marco, painted by an Englishman, with a procession going in at the door
and beggars round the doorway, blobby and shapeless like English
peasants in Italian clothes ... bad ... and the man had worked and
studied and gone to Italy and had a name and still worked and people
bought his things ... an engraving very fine and small of a low bridge
in a little town, quiet sharp cheering lines; and above it another
engraving, a tiresome troubled girl, all a sharp film of fine woven
lines and lights and shadows in a rich dark liny filmy interior, neither
letting you through nor holding you up, the girl worrying there in the
middle of the picture, not moving, an obstruction.... Maris ... the two
little water colours of Devonshire, a boat with a brown sail and a small
narrow piece of a street zig-zagging sharply up between crooked houses,
by a Londoner--just to say how crooked everything was ... that thing in
this month's Studio was better than any of these ... her heart throbbed
suddenly as she thought of it ... a narrow sandy pathway going off,
frilled with sharp greenery, far into a green wood.... Had he seen it?