The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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When she had prepared for Mr. Hancock's first afternoon patient Miriam
sat down at her crowded table in a heavy drowse. No sound came from the
house or from the den. The strip of sky above the blank wall opposite
her window was an even cold grey. There was nothing to mark the movement
of the noisy wind. The room was cold and stuffy. Shivering as she moved,
she glanced round at the lamp. It was well trimmed. The yellow flame was
at its broadest. The radiator glared. The warmth did not reach her. She
was cold to the waist, her feet without feeling on the strip of
linoleum; her knees protruding into the window space felt as if they
were in cold water. Her arms crept and flushed with cold at every
movement, strips of cold wrist disgusted her, showing beyond her skimpy
sleeves and leading to the hopelessness of her purplish red hands
swollen and clammy with cold. Her hot head and flushed cheeks begged for
fresh air. Warm rooms, with carpets and fires; an even, airy warmth....
There were people who could be in this sort of cold and be active, with
cool faces and warm hands, even just after lunch. If Mr. Leyton were
here he would be briskly entering up the books--perhaps with a red nose;
but very brisk. He was finishing Buck off; briskly, not even talking.
Mr. Hancock would be working swiftly at well up-to-date accounts,
without making a single mistake. Where had he sat doing all those pages
of beautiful spidery book-keeping? Mr. Orly would be rushing things
through. What a drama. He knew it. He _knew_ he had earned his rest by
the fire ... doing everything, making and building the practice ...
people waiting outside the surgery with basins for him to rush out and
be sick. Her sweet inaccurate help in the fine pointed writing on cheap
paper ... the two cheap rooms they started in.... The Wreck of the _Mary
Gloucester_ ... "and never a doctor's brougham to help the missis
unload." They had been through everything together ... it was all there
with them now ... rushing down the street in the snow without an
overcoat to get her the doctor. They were wise and sweet; in life and
wise and sweet. They had gone out and would be back for tea. Perhaps
they had gone out. Everything was so quiet. Two hours of cold before
tea. Putting in order the materials for the gold and tin she propped her
elbows on the table and rested her head against her hands and closed her
eyes. There was a delicious drowsiness in her head but her back was
tired. She rose and wandered through the deserted hall into the empty
waiting room. The clear blaze of a coal fire greeted her at the doorway
and her cold feet hurried in on to the warm Turkey carpet. The dark oak
furniture and the copper bowls and jugs stood in a glow of comfort. From
the centre of the great littered table a bowl of daffodils asserted the
movement of the winter and pointed forward and away from the winter
stillness of the old room. The long faded rich crimson rep curtains