The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4 — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
The tunnel : $b Pilgrimage, Volume 4
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obscured half the width of each high window and the London light
screened by the high opposing houses fell dimly on the dingy books and
periodicals scattered about the table. Miriam stood by the mantelpiece
her feet deep in the black sheepskin rug and held out her hands towards
the fire. They felt cold again the instant she withdrew them from the
blaze. The hall clock gonged softly twice. The legal afternoon had
begun. Anyone finding her in here now would think she was idling. She
glanced at the deep dark shabby leather armchair near by and imagined
the relief that would come to her whole frame, if she could relax into
it for five undisturbed minutes. The ringing of the front door bell sent
her hurrying back to her room.
The sound of reading came from the den--a word-mouthing word-slurring
monotonous drawl--thurrah-thurrah-thurrah; thurrah thurrah ... a single
beat, on and on, the words looped and forced into it without any
discrimination, the voice dropping uniformly at the end of each sentence
... _thrah_.... An Early Victorian voice giving reproachful instruction
to a child ... a class of board school children reciting.... Perhaps
they had changed their minds about going out.... Miriam sat with her
hands tucked between her knees musing with her eyes fixed on the thin
sheets of tin and gold ... extraordinary to read any sort of text like
that ... but there was something in it, something nice and good ...
listening carefully you would get most of the words. It would be better
to listen to than a person who read with intelligent modulations, as if
they had written the thing themselves; like some men read ... and
irritatingly intelligent women ... who knew they were intelligent. But
there ought to be clear ... enunciation. Not expression--that was like
commenting as you read; getting at the person you were reading to ...
who might not want to comment in the same way. Reading, with expression,
really hadn't any expression. How wonderful--of course. Mrs. Orly's
reading had an expression; a shape. It was exactly like the way they
looked at things; exactly; everything was there; all the things they
agreed about, and the things he admired in her ... things that by this
time she knew he admired.... She was conscious of these things ... that
was the difference between her and her sister, who had exactly the same
things but had never been admired ... standing side by side exactly
alike, the sister like a child--clear with a sharp fresh edge; Mrs. Orly
with a different wisdom ... softened and warm and blurred ... conscious,
and always busy distracting your attention, but with clear eyes like a
child, too.
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Presently the door opened quietly and Mrs. Orly appeared in the doorway.
"Miss Hens'n" she whispered urgently. Miriam turned to meet her flushed
face. "Oh Miss Hens'n" she pursued absently, "if Mudie's send d'you mind
lookin' and choosin' us something nice?"
"Oh" said Miriam provisionally with a smile.