Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation
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“You will be glad to hear that I like your goody-goody friend much
better than I did when you were here. He has been very kind and
attentive, sending to inquire about me every day, and yesterday sent
beautiful flowers and a kind note, regretting so much it was not he who
had saved my life instead of a stranger, and saying he would have been
first to the rescue but for that aggravating Minnie Hyer clinging to
him in hysterics and holding him back, till he actually pushed her into
another man’s arms and escaped to assist me. You see, I am answering
your letter right away, Florian, though I am propped up with pillows
in bed; but I knew you would be anxious to hear from me and interested
in--everything.”
When this entertaining letter reached Florian at Carlsbad, where he had
found his father very low but still alive, the poor fellow was indeed
almost distracted at hearing of his sweetheart’s narrow escape from
death. He longed passionately, impatiently, to fly back to her side;
but it was impossible to desert his sorrowing mother and slowly dying
father.
“Oh, my darling, my darling, if only you would have come with me!” he
groaned, as he read and reread the dear letter, hungering for words of
tenderness of which he found so few.
It dawned on him presently that half her letter had been devoted to
Professor Desha and her unknown rescuer.
“Confound them both!” he muttered, jealously, crossing out with pencil
all the offending lines, and leaving only what referred to herself.
CHAPTER VI.
VIOLA’S REPENTANCE.
“Since I must love thee--since a weird, wild fate
Impels me to thy heart against my will--
Do thou this justice to the soul I yield:
_Be its ideal_. Let it not blush to love.
* * * Be noble, truthful, brave,
Love honor more than Love, and more than me.”
When Viola was well enough to receive callers again, Professor Desha
was among the first announced.
Since the day of her accident his heart had been in a tumult of emotion.
He had realized that the interest he took in the fair coquette was deep
and painful--painful because he deemed it no less than a calamity to
lose his heart to one like Viola, who only played at love, and seemed
to have no conception of its depth and sacredness.
Although he was in his dignified way a very attractive man, he did not
have enough personal vanity to suppose that he could succeed in winning
her heart where so many others had failed--even Florian Gay, so young
and handsome, and much richer than himself.
So while she lay ill he began to read his own heart in dismay, and
entered on a struggle with the passion that had stolen on him unawares,
bursting into full flower that tragic day when she had gone down so
swiftly through the broken ice into the black, flowing river to what
might so quickly have been cruel death.
She filled his whole heart and thoughts, and he stood aghast at his own
weakness and folly.