Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation
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“You are very kind,” he said, lightly; but the subject chafed him.
He changed it by saying, “You promised to tell me why you ventured so
imprudently far on the ice that day?”
“Oh, yes,” and she began to laugh. “It was this way: I saw Minnie
Hyer’s partner skating out toward me. He was almost as clumsy as
Minnie, and I said to myself: ‘I will not be bothered with that great
gawk if I have to skate across the Potomac to escape him!’ So I went
flying, and--suddenly I heard the ice cracking with my weight and
realized my danger. I started to go back, but the thin ice broke,
and--oh!” cried Viola, hiding her suddenly blanched face in her tiny
white hands.
“Do not think of it any more,” he said, remembering her aunt’s caution.
“Oh, but I must!” she cried, impulsively. “And I haven’t told you yet
how anxious I am to know the name of the hero who saved my life. I am
so anxious to thank him and to have papa reward him handsomely--if he
would accept it.”
“I should imagine he would be glad of a reward--or that he needed it.
He was not particularly well dressed, though as handsome as a prince,
and as brave as a hero,” Professor Desha replied.
“Poor and proud,” commented Aunt Edwina.
“And you have no slightest idea as to his identity?” Viola cried,
anxiously.
“Not the slightest; and I am sorry, for I would like to know such a
brave man better. He told me you were sinking for the second time when
he dived after you,” returned Desha, generously, though a spasm of
pain contracted his heart at her interest in the handsome unknown.
But he could not blame her at all. It would have appeared most
ungrateful if she had not taken any interest.
He began to think of going, but still he lingered, feasting his eyes on
her lovely pale face that he was promising himself never to see again.
She began to ask him about the gayeties she had missed during her
illness, and it gave him the opportunity he desired of saying that he
had attended few social functions lately. His time had been occupied
with congressional duties, and he had resolved to eschew the delights
of society.
“That is too bad,” Viola exclaimed; and it seemed to him as if there
was genuine regret in her tones and in the quick glance of her soft
eyes.
He wondered, with a furious throb at his heart, if she really took an
interest in him, or was it only polite pretense?
Ah, since Fate had made him love her against his will, how glorious it
would have been to win her--to teach her the true beauty and sacredness
of love, to be proud of her, to realize with her the great happiness
of loving and being loved! It staggered him, the trembling hope, the
superlative joy of the thought.
Then came a quick revulsion:
“Her tender tones and looks mean nothing. She has tried them on other
men; she shall not tangle me in her toils! It is all deceit, and I hate
myself for being so weak!”