Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation — John Stuart Mill — John Shaqi
Viola's vanity : $b or, A bitter expiation
John Stuart Mill · en
But when three weeks had passed, and society was loudly whispering
that Congressman Desha was Miss Van Lew’s latest victim, succeeding
George Merrington in her good graces, the lover began to chafe under
the gossip, and reminded his idol that she had promised to end his
probation in three weeks.
Viola turned pale and pleaded for more time. She saw a shadow cross his
face, and he asked, abruptly:
“Viola, can I trust you? Do you really love me, or are you simply
trifling with my honest, manly love?”
The sternness of his voice frightened Viola, who was always in terror
lest he might find out the truth about Florian or George Merrington,
and hate her for her coquetry.
She faltered:
“I will give you such a proof of my love that you can not doubt me any
longer. If you will keep the secret of our engagement until I give you
leave to speak, you may ask papa for me at any time you wish and name
the wedding-day.”
He caught her little velvety soft hands and covered them with ardent
kisses.
“Oh, my dearest one, my beautiful love, how I thank you for these sweet
concessions!” he cried, rapturously, and added, happily: “I shall speak
to your father tomorrow, and with your permission I shall name an early
date for the wedding. I am too impatient to wait long for my happiness!”
“Very well,” she answered, meekly and willingly, for with every day her
reluctance to write the truth to Florian grew greater. Part of it was
pity for the pain she must inflict on the true heart that loved her so,
and part of it was something like fear.
She had remembered with alarm her playful threats, that during his
absence she might find some one she loved better than himself, and his
quick exclamation:
“Woe be unto him!”
She who had been so gay and careless before, had become a changed
girl since the affair of George Merrington. And when she remembered
Florian’s devotion, and the cruel wound she was going to give his
heart, she recalled with dismay her father’s words:
“A man’s heart is not simply a toy!”
Viola had always thought so till then, and now she was afraid of the
consequences of her coquetry.
It dawned on her that Florian might possibly be very angry at her
fickleness, perhaps seek revenge.
What if he should hasten home and denounce her, like George Merrington,
for her fault? What if he should betray her to Professor Desha? She
trembled at the very thought.
“I should lose him forever! He would sacrifice me to his high ideal of
honor! And I can not give him up, he was too hard to win!” she sighed,
recalling all her pangs at Desha’s coldness.
She became afraid to write the truth to Florian, but she replied to his
fond love letters in the briefest, coldest fashion, hoping he would
understand that her love was dead, and himself hasten in anger to
release her from her promise.
So matters stood when Desha reminded her of her promise to let him
announce their engagement, his manly pride chafing against the society
chatter about their flirtation.